Fourandahalf

at 967

2009-10-13T19:24:00.002+08:00

i didnt make it to a 1000 post in bruffbone. but at least there are 967 posts.
if anyone still visits this blog, maybe i should say,
I'VE MOVVEED!

when will it burst?

2009-04-13T02:44:00.002+08:00

the rubber band might just snap one day.

i wonder what can make me happier these days.

topsy-turvy

2009-04-06T01:54:00.003+08:00

life's been in a pretty mess for the past few week. thing were happening, mummy's not healthy and i just pray that she'll escape from cancer. sigh. I didnt quite feel worried when she told me about it but untill i realised that she was freaking freaking worried, i couldnt help it but feared. there were days that i actually cried but most of the time, i hold it back.
when people tell stories about cancer, i'll fear. caz i dont want mummy to leave me. yet.
i wonder what mummy thinks, would she rather hear them or just stay in her own peace.

Daddy God, i pray that you will keep mum in Your hands.
for now, please give some respect to my mum. or you'll never know what i'll do.

sometimes sining seems to be the best remedy. been back to my greatest sin that i was in before i was a christian and took me about 4 years of christian life to be free-ed. Although this time it's different but same genre lah. but it's been there for the past weeks. sometimes it gets real bad. like you know it's wrong but then you'll still walk into the boundary. praying didnt quite work cause i knew i could face God. I wasnt even able to pray the Lord's Prayer without getting distracted.
So last week, i decided to go on a fast. one to teach me how to avoid temptation, two to have mummy safe.

stop on friday and somehow things got better. i was able to avoid sining, or maybe sin less. and even when there were times when the brain tries to psyco you to sin, somehow things distracted me from sining. and what more, last night, i manage to say the Lord's Prayer without getting distracted.

lead us not in to temptation but deliver us from evil.

lesser time at home i guess.

2009-03-22T01:50:00.003+08:00

blogging less,
i wonder why.

maybe my life's not that exciting anymore?
but okay what.

youth hub and the kids are great.
climbing at boulderactive was pretty fun. but i do need to traaaainnn more.
lync's graduation party was not too bad lah. even thou i was horribly, half, undressed. =)

OH, i got my moduel class and selection already.
got my 5th module, and 75% of my class will be made up of year 3s. kill me please.

ah peh wan chee and lastest favourite boy, dustin!
my fav indian boy, vinesh, hasnt been coming, i think caz he's been mixing too much with bad company. sigh, so young you know.......... 12 years old i hope he comes back soon. even if he's there to bullshit and bully me.

with trust and faith.

2009-03-07T02:33:00.002+08:00

i know i haven been going climbing cause of work and stuff. and few days ago, i decided that i should build up some muscles. no time for proper exercising, no rocks to hang on. so i chose the stairs.
running/walking up 18 floors for the past 3 days is untimately tiring. but well, it's a good i think. had a challange with bro today and obviously i won, while he gave up at the 14th floor. it's actually good that he made it all the way to the 14th floor. try it, it'll kill you for sure.

i hope me legs gets stronger from these 18 stories and help me to be able to climb better despite having a rock wall. and also, window grills are also been a good source of exercising material. hang there and train the muscles.

climbing comp in 2 or 3 weeks time.

watch the climbing comp at SMU today.
and i realised that sometimes, this is life.
no matter how much i would like to climb, i'll have to face the reality.
WELL, in God's timing.
in God's timing.

i got my pay today but is a little confused with the sum of money i got. shall ask AJ when i see her.

climbing with God

2009-02-28T02:34:00.004+08:00

and i finally asked,
give me a chance, let me glow.
for this i pray, to Daddy God.

i guess it's been a really long time since i've built up the courage to ask God for something. something that i really wanted to maybe succeed in or to be proud of. it suddenly felt like all my chances were gone, like i used to have comments that i was good, well, one of the best. and somehow i knew that there were people who were expecting great achievments from me. But maybe i should just blame myself from being uncommitted, to climbing.
i've been missing my chances to prove my ability.
I can easily blame it on working/serving God during my holidays, which prevented me from climbing as well as joining a comp that could simply prove my ability, but somehow, i wasnt able to blame work at all because, i love the job, the kids, and i wouldnt even think about giving up this job for climbing.

But Lord, now i ask,
that somehow, You'll able to help me climb while i work.
Give me to strength and energy.
the ability to climb well and recieve glory,
for surely i will return all glory to You.

GLORY, it's like a very selfish word to use. and it took my a long time to even say out that word to God as i left the climbing room, without being able to climb. And as i walk out to the entrance of school, i prayed. but felt that glory just seemed so unholy in God eyes. But then i chose glory because i felt small in the climbing group, 80% malays (who convers in malay most of the time), 2 chinese girls, one who is super socialable and the other, me, who is super anti social. sometimes, all it takes to make me happy is to be able to hear someone calling my name, teaching me how to climb the right way. And it's not that i'm outcasted or something, it's that i really dont know how to communicate well.
and today, i thanked God for send one who spoke and totally updated me with every upcoming comps for the year.

glory.
i feared to tell God that. but then for a long time, God spoke, and cause i haven listened for a long time, it took me a long time to understand.
few days ago, while doing my QT, it was talking about prayer in practice. where it said that i should pray about everything. in Philippians 4:6, "tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done"
from big things to small things, i could ask Him.
then He told me about faith.
i guess being very very very dissappointed in my O level result has taken a whole big chunk of my faith in Prayer. I asked but i never recieve. so i chose not to ask anymore, but let Him do things of His will. But sometimes, God just wants you to ASK.

praying for glory wasnt by faith that time but it was more of a courage. "it glory too self?" but i managed to say it out. and found a little faith growing.

i dunno wether i'll excel further in climbing during this holiday with work, but i would really want to see God working in my life once again.

and thank Him for all He has done

RAINBOW!

2009-02-26T02:09:00.002+08:00

while waiting for my bus to come, a few kids came down from their school bus, and after awhile they point up to the sky and said.
"RAINBOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

IT'S SUPER PRETTY.
and what i saw behind bukit panjang plaza wasnt just it.
as the bus drove along bukit panjang, there was more.
it was SO BIG that it seemed like it's governing over bukit panjang, from one end to another.

did you see the rainbow??

this picture is taken from my house.

but after 5 mins it went away, cause the sun was setting.

how often do you see such a rainbow? it was my first. and it made my day. =)

Gen 9:13

I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.

youth hub

2009-02-16T12:48:00.001+08:00

it's raining heavily now. and i wonder if there's gonna be many kids in the hub today to boost up some energy in me.

oh if you didnt know, i've finally started work.

a little sad valentine.

2009-02-15T01:38:00.002+08:00

i think i'm slowly putting more of climbing into my life, because i was actually upset that didnt have my climbing shoes which prevented me from joining a mini comp today.

maybe it's a good thing that made me realised i do like rock climbing.
well, maybe God has His reason for not getting me into the comp. although i really wanted to try it out and see where i stand.

lonely valentine at home.
but who cares.
just needed to settle down for one day.

it could change a life.

2009-02-14T00:55:00.006+08:00

something came into my mind at class's bbq yesterday, and it was the last thing that i'll ever want to consider of but it was in my thoughts of for at least 5 secs. plus somehow, this time, i dunno why but the pressure was really high.

you know like God has set this very very clear bourdary for me that i should never smoke, not even try a puff, cause He once told me that if i try, it'll be something that i'll never be able to get rid of.

and somehow at THAT moment, i just felt God using so much strength to pull me back to Him saying no, repeating what He has told me before, over and over. While friend/s tries to temp me.

you know at the moment, i felt like i was being hypnotized or something caz never in my life was i tempted by this and thank God for awaking me.

but still i'm super affected and shocked by that 5 secs.
its scary when i start thinking of what had happened.

driving.

2009-02-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

up infront of my table like a reflection.

life sucks.

i have a brother.

2009-02-07T03:55:00.005+08:00

I have a brother.
and i called him into my room to check out his new name card design.

so he sat on my bed and started to look through my stuff.
my tv related cables, food and air-con control.
and asked many many questions.

then he left with this sentance.
"i dont care, you better think. (of a new design for the back of the namecard)"

many hours, when i'm done with the namecard i realised stuffs.
1) he ate my snack and threw the wraper on my tv table.
2) he left his empty bottle of apple juice on my tv table.
3) he change me air-con temperature from 25 to 18 degrees and i was almost freezing.

i have a brother,
a silent killer.

march twelve

2009-02-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

was watching tv just now and it advertised a singapore band called "march twelve".
hahah yes my very favourite day i guess.
checked it up.
their song isnt that nice.
But since my previous blog song entry is no more here, here a new song.

the intro is kinda LOOOONNNGGGG.
and it's the only song i can find from imeem

march twelve - brainwashed -

climb and tare.

2009-02-05T01:03:00.004+08:00

i went climbing today.
and made three more blisters.
2 on left, 1 on my right pinky.
kill me please.
it hurts much more than the previous ones, especially when it's under water.

SEE LAH THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR NOT CLIMBING AFTER A LONG TIME.

more than just a crack.

2009-02-03T03:54:00.006+08:00

wah lauuu life sucks mann.
just when my fingers are healing from the wounds and being almost painless, i happily did push-ups on my bed and made a crack of wound on and almost fully healed finger.

now, i cant open up my fingers again.
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what?

2009-02-03T01:57:00.002+08:00

somehow, i feel that i'm slowly losing my emotions

like a plain stone at times.

daddy.

2009-01-31T01:55:00.003+08:00

my dad accidently threw away my brother's hundred over dollars external hard drive plus other IT stuff, that he bought today.

and i think my brother was super sad when the dust bin was emptyed.
i'll seriously cry if i'm my brother.
somemore IT is like one of my bro's favourite.
it's like getting a new toy and throwing it before you can play with it.

i think dad's getting old.

WENT CLIMBING TODAY.
left with three digusting blister on my left hand.
But climbing was still cool lah.
blame it on not climbing for almost 2 mths.

how to

2009-01-27T01:45:00.006+08:00

The steamboat heater for reunion dinner at my aunt’s house didn’t quite worked the way we wanted it to. So dad came out with this. “ how to starve your guest.”

Then today, after visiting, he came home and went into the kitchen to cook a can of $100 abalone, where he killed the family. And then he came out with this. “How to so torture your family.” With a $100 worth delicacy.

(jun, if you think that big bird’s chicken rice and steamboat chilie is suppper spicy, try this.)
amazingly, it was suppppperrrrr good that we finished it.

and finally......

2009-01-24T02:07:00.003+08:00

LET ME DO A PROPER POST.

been pretty busy lately, maybe that's why i didnt bother posting anything, properly. i guess pictures really do help me in cutting down in lot of words. maybe jun can learn this from me. well, i still suck at writing, and i'll never ever be a writer.

Ok climbmax 09 just ended last sat. Did i say that it's freaking tiring?!?!?! went to school at 730am and left at 11pm. well it's not only the darn long hours. But the tiring part came in when i have to RUUUUNNNN from outdoor climbing wall, to the registration booth. Although it didnt seem very far from the wall but i think it's the psychological thing, where your surrounding is so green and empty, that it looks like the distance is doubled. so, you just cant help it, but to run.
WELL, i guess the good thing about this whole climb max was, i managed to built some closer relationship with the climbers. For example, slacking and playing scrambler with jocelyn.
And till today, we're still playing it.

and woah i tell you, climbing guys are freakkkkinnggg hot. Even the ugly ones are redeemed by their perfect body. six packs i tell you. i wish to get one, not a lump of fats but real muscles.

IEFFA was the most amazing female climber ever and yes, she did make RP proud, pity that she's year 2 OR YEAR 3 in april and wouldnt represent my batch much in her year three. I should really work hard on upgrading my standards in climbing. climb asia, yishun safra and school climbing days should be regular. Just hope that trainings in sch will be at night so that i'll be able to go down after YOUTH HUB.

YES, youth hub, gonna Give at least a mth of my holidays to God and wont bother much about the money matter, maybe i'll go out and work in march. And i hope i do. feels like working in Starbucks or some coffee brewing place, but doubt so caz i think there's a need to work for 3 months or something.

OH wells, i'll see how. maybe i'll end up continuing in Youth hub. It's not a very bad job lahh but i still have some outside job experience.

YEAR one ends and it's always very weird that only on the last week of school that the class will bond together and treasure each other. Also, at every last min of being in the same class we'll always talk about how we all meet and reacted on the first day of school. And it's a pity that andre didnt come to school today. I think he's really cute and surely he has brought ALOT AND ALOT of laughter to the class.
Talking about Andre, he just did his very weird friendly greetings to shandy on wednesday.

Shandy's birthday celebration just ended few hrs ago. and it was totally awesome. So awesome that she cried. awwwwww. So much for proper planning and ponning school on tuesday, with min hui, to prepare and bake her cake. Even thou the only disspointment i had was when my 5 helium colour ballons died after 24hrs. but the birthday designed ballon still stands tall.

happy holidays in bangkok and wish you all the best for you coming year.
REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU AND MIN HUI TOO!

SUCCEEDED.

YEAR TWO SIAAAAAAAAA

2009-01-23T15:42:00.002+08:00

AT THIS POINT OF TIME, I'M OFFICIALLY A GRADUATE OF RP'S YEAR ONE!
YAYYYYY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOING OUT TO CELEBRATE SHANDY'S BDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANDY!

W46G

2009-01-15T20:22:00.003+08:00

driving is good today caz i finally got my malay instructor back. MUCH better than the stupid chinese guy who ALWAYS buy dinner and leave me driving alone.
Learn the back parking today!

Had lesson in a freaking cool lecture room yesterday. It like some super cool conference kind of room that like 4 rows high, many chairs like those in the photos and at every seat, you have your own MIKE, power plug, a sound cable and the cable thing to screen your laptop infront our the class.

Oh and there are like 4 cameras in the room. it's the black thing above the clock.
DARNNN COOL. makes you feel professional but insecure, caz the faci cant see everything that's on you laptop.

weaken by your grace

2009-01-13T00:04:00.005+08:00

"let the weak say i am strong"
"but may i be weak before my Lord, to live in His strength."

I guess i've really been struggling these many mths telling myself that my walk with God is there and actually it is not. Sometimes I feel that i'm just too afraid to admit that my walk with God has fallen, or when i see that people around me who seemed like they are doing well with the Lord, it cause me to feel that I am also growing with the Lord.

But did i psyco myself to say that "hey i've been good with the Lord" to the extend that when people ask me "how your walk with God" i'll say, "ok lor, not progressing not falling" and i remembered how denise once said that there's not stagnant walk with God. only ups and downs. And with out realisation, i'm actually slowly going down and that passion for God isnt there anymore, the times when God just walk with me and speak to me at any point of time doesnt seems to happen. Or times when i'm so willing to scarifice sometimes just to spend time with God. There really no such thing as being stagnant, cause the moment there's no progress with God means you're falling.

and what God really spoke to me yesterday during 9am service was as simple as just saying "Daddy God, i'm weak, and i need You" I've been wanting to be so strong that I wouldnt soften my heart to look for God. and there was a moment that i really wanted to walk down to the front and ask for prayers. but somehow i didnt do it.

I want to be a child who runs back to God when He asks.

I remembered during the early cityteens time, I would, forever, go up for minstry, cry, slain and be refreshed. But as i grew older, i started hearing things like "they always ask for ministry then it's like pointless to go up everytime...." and i guess along the years, my defination of being Holy slowly became "dont go up means i'm holy, i'm alright with God, so i dont need minstry."

But that's really not the point, being able to stand up for God, be guilty and actually say that "HEY i'm not right with You, i want to renew my love for You again" shows a heart that's wanting God more and more and more.. for there is not limit in loving God.

let me sing (from my heart) to You, and give praises to Your name.

What The LORD Has Done In Me - Darlene Zschech

adrenaline

2009-01-09T01:03:00.003+08:00

and how awesome is it that i am still have energy. I guess, if i'm really bored and loney, i'll just fall into deeeeep sleep.

helping out for the climbing comps for the pass 2 days has been pretty awesome. although i'm not climbing in any comp, i still feel that i have a responsibilty in doing the registeration stuff before i'll even think of leaving something that i'm suppose to handle cause i want to join comp. WELL, maybe comps will be for next time.

ANYWAYS, after the comp, i finally manage to have climbs 3 wall out of 4. caz the 4th one seemed impossible. and yes, it's freakkinnggg tiring.
serve me right for not climbing for a mth.

enough of climbing, i'm going to prepare to sleep in 45mins time.

back to school

2009-01-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

life sucks caz school starts tomorrow. or in 8hrs time.

but it's just 3 more weeks, 15more days till many months of holiday.

yay serve reunion thing tml or whatever you call it.

wah lauuuuuu

2009-01-03T02:44:00.002+08:00

i guess the deepest regret of going for rock climbing today is that i wasnt even able to touch or climb rocks. but maybe the good thing about it is that at least i showed my face and did something, quite helpful but sucky. stupid RP just have to make us pack the goody bags, not in hundreds but thousands and thousands of green bags plus many many phamlets. the worst part is that they didnt even supply us with air con in that stuffy indoor basketball court but just 3 fans that obviously everyone wasnt able to recieve.

AND SHIT. I FORGOT TO DO MY DESIGN STUFF.
SCREW IT.
needs a tumbdrive and i dunno wheres mine. syl has one of mine, bro another i think but he's sleeping.

ARRGGHHHHHH LIFE SUCKS.

2009!

2009-01-01T21:49:00.006+08:00

happy new year people!

spend the last mins of 2008 with kim by having ba ku teh from balestier rd to coffee from united sq's starbucks and finally to newton for chicken wings when a very small cute uncle welcomes everyone into 2009 by hitting a tin of oil with a stick.
indeed a cool way of counting down.

WELL, they say new year must have resolutions right and i'm not one who hopes or wants much but here's my list of things that i'll hope to achieve this year.

1) pass driving prac with first try
2) put my heart into rock climbing.
3) love what i'm going to do in poly year 2.
4) make more friends in poly.
5) lose more weight?
6) grow spiritually
7) go out and work.
8) leave singapore for a moment. (sister's leaving for hongkong at 6am and i'm here still trying to get out of singapore.)

hmm i think that's all. i'm a girl of little dream cause i'm willing to accept anything that come or go. i mean i belief that since i'm living for God, it's up to Him to decide what's up for me.
=)
OR maybe i've faced too many disappointments in life that i dont bother dreaming big but just trust in God.

Isaiah 55:9
"For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts"

RP and SLIPPERS.

2008-12-29T04:18:00.003+08:00

WAHHH LAUUUUUUUUUUUU
JUST WHEN I'M FINALLY FREE TO GO FOR ROCK CLIMBING, STUPID RP BAN ROCK CLIMBING FOR 2 WEEKS CAZ SOME STUPID CLIMBERS WORE SLIPPERS INTO THE HALL.
ok. climbing friend just told me it's a ban for ONE MONTH not two weeks.

kill me.
but lucky i checked my mail or eles i'll be a stupid idiot going to rp tml.

doll face.

2008-12-29T03:33:00.004+08:00

i think, sometimes, when i take photos, i look like a doll.
especially when there's bright light on me.
here's some example.

anyways, i really like the smile that i have here. =)

and i should learn how to smile like that in photos, then maybe i wont look like a doll too.

YAYY

2008-12-28T00:12:00.002+08:00

JUST WHEN I WAS THINKING ABOUT FRIENDS LAST NIGHT, JIM MESSAGED ME TO MEET SINCE HE WAS ON THE WAY HOME, PASSING CITYHALL FROM BOOKING OUT.

i wonder how are the rest of the army boys doing.

lalalala

2008-12-27T02:14:00.003+08:00

and i skipped climbing today.
eorfwilmdoi43r0uedok.

i hate designing and it's good that i'm going YA so that i'll never get involved with design minstry again.

oh yah i forgot to say, Christmas this year was kinda special for me. even thou it was a very busy period. And i guess it was really cool like how the sermon in minhui's church event thing and the 9am christmas service was kinda similar. but yet, what really spoke to me this year was really the "what is christmas to you?" going CCIS, seeing all the decorations at plaza sing and also the floats on orchard. but the "you" wasnt for me, but to those who does not know the true meaning of christmas.

suddenly, i miss all my friends.
wondering how are you guys doing.
still loving all of you, no matter who you are.

moving on.

2008-12-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

CCIS, minhui's christmas drama, wenhsin and louis baptism.

and finally everything ended and so there's not more excuse to skip climbing.
yes, start climbing from tomorrow onwards.

hmmm i just decided to take a look at my RP grades and realised that IT'S FREAKIINNGGGG BAD. i bet i'm like below average now. please chiong and do my best for the last three weeks of school. AND, no more ponning. i've used more and what i'm suppose to use already.

so much for hatting RP.
ok maybe i shall make a goal for year two, to get a GPA above 3.

OH yah thinking about it, last week was my official last week of LYnC! and i'm moving on to YA.
and why isnt there any graduation thing?

2008-12-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

screw it.

hoping that one day, i'll make climbing my life.

2008-12-17T05:55:00.005+08:00

it's 5:55am
and i didnt waste my time staying up till this early.
mummy was telling me today that forcing yourself to stay up late will spoil your eyes. hmm that's something new. or caz few days ago i told her, "i think there's problem with my eyes, better go for check up". So, maybe she tried to psycho me. but seems like it didnt work.

anyways, it was a pretty good reason for staying up late.
first, I design design designed till i got really sick and tired of it.
i decided to stop and find something to do.
read my email and felt freaking insulted by the designer head's sarcasm.
but ignored it.
found a video of my climbing coach in her facebook and was spurred to watch more climbing videos, to get motivated and be more devoted to climbing.
so, you tubed till i was super affected by the sarcastic comment

and you know, when linette feels insulted, she'll plan to make a miracle.
finally i'm all done, except for just 1 thing, which i'll need sylvia's help.

in between, i had macdonald's breakfast.
=)

i still dont quite like designing.

Allez linette!

not artistic.

2008-12-16T02:43:00.003+08:00

ughh i dont want to get going with my publyncation. it's soooo irritating, and i hate thinking of new ideas or like anything that has to do with art. i'm not a creative thinker. no wonder i'm in school of IT and not some school of design. AND no wonder why i'm actually excelling in computering and maths when everyone hates it.

life sucks. haha
kick me out of design ministry after this issue.

leave in silence.

2008-12-14T01:29:00.002+08:00

if one day i go missing and you're unable to contact me,
it means i've left singapore to chill.

i wish to leave singapore and disappear for a moment.
and i missed the chance today.

bye jim. bye ben tan.

2008-12-12T17:44:00.004+08:00

camp just ended and the campsite made me sick.
i think i'm allergic to something in the camp.

anyways, jim and ben tan are in army now!
how cool! but i kinda regret that i didnt send them off.

i feel so bad when jim actually send a mass message:
"Good bye my brothers and sisters.. i will be in army camp in the next 1hour.. please take care of youself.. you people are being loved by jim as his unforgettable friends.. haha take care."

oh wells, see you in 3 weeks time!
hope you'll learn something from army.

knowing the limits

2008-12-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

farewell party by ben tan and jim for ARMY!

last night was cool cause i meet up with my most awesome friends ever. I guess to a certain people, they're not 'the kind of friends you should mix with' but truely enough, they are a bunch or wonderful people where almost nothing can beat this 6 years friendships.

well, i finally manage to learn when i should stop drinking or what can prevent me from getting drunk till i dunno what's happening.
or like DRINKING CAN REALLY MAKE YOUR BRAIN THINK SLOWLY.
and i think i drank alot last night that i'm still abit hmmm blurr?
abit at least, i know that last night even though i could feel it, my mind was still 100% clear but just slow.

i guess it was a good experience lah, not saying that drinking is good but it's knowing your limits is good.
i'm sure i dont want to be dead drunk, senseless in the future cause i've never experience the signs before it.

oh yah the thing about my friends is, they'll never ever force me to drink, cause they know that having me to drink with them is the furthest unholy thing that i'll do for them.
=)

rubber band.

2008-12-06T02:35:00.003+08:00

when i start relaying on medication,
it means that i'm almost to my limits.
but at least it's a warning that i need to cool down or something.

i need a break.
i wish i can leave singapore to keep my mind clear.
or to run away from things.

it's no good when i start responding with CHEE................. cause the 2nd words will come out anytime.

Daddy God,
let me enjoy tomorrow night but let me know my limits too.

back to school

2008-12-02T01:16:00.007+08:00

i'm done with a tiny bit of my article. it takes me a really long time to get my thoughts into sentences and it'll usually happen when i lay on my bed getting ready to sleep. but still thanks to xiao guang for her edits.
and i think i need more photoshots for back to school cover.
better jump shots.

love the church background.

NEXT, "back to school" photos are up on facebook and the comments are killing me.
check this out,

ok i bet you cant see the circles
on the left say 39 meaning 39 mails deleted but not read.
oval circle says 2:14pm
below it says page 3

oval: 2:21AM
page one.

uh-huh.

O$P$

2008-11-29T23:34:00.008+08:00

ok currently, this is my favourite song.
and i decided to change the music concept,
instead of have a music by the side, it will be in the post.
so the song will stay till it's gone from the page.
=)

1234 I Love You - Plain White Ts

anyways check this out.my house lift and it took me some time to understand
OWE MONEY PAY MONEY!
HAH.

i still hate blogging in school. so i edit it at home.

2008-11-28T10:44:00.007+08:00

if i dont blog now, i'm never gonna get this bruffbone updated.

so i woke up today with a "YAY IT'S FRIDAY" but drags my way to school in my very "UGHH I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL" mood.
reached school, AND, before i could even warm my chair.

something ud03jdeihf happened.

then i made asusual without thinking, innocent shoutout
lin: AYE SOMEONE FARTED! DAMN SMELLY SIA!
i didnt expect anyone to reply but andre did.
andre: OH SORRY SORRY!! (walks out of class.)

HAHAHAHA.
DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU.

ok i'm screwed in writing an article for publyncation. cause my ideas are changing almost everyday. AND, i'm left with a week. (i'm a pretty on schduel person ok)
Article, photoshots, front page design (half done), back page design and content page design (when i dont quite know what's the content.)

and then there's CHRISTMAS aka my favourite festival of the year. which actually means, i'll be getting buiser. ok i'm still clueless with the ccis thing and i dont think i want to be in the band for the january's 9am service. maybe curie can take my place like give her experience or something? i'm 100% sure she can harmoize better than me.

ok then climbmax during RP's open house, in early jan?

HOLIDAYS IS IN 2 WEEKS AND CAMP'S ON LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL.
kill me.
I hope the school did major changes in the UT days so that i wouldnt need to go to school.

before class starts again,
BYEBYE!

*edited*

for ponning school

2008-11-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

hmmm for ponning school today i gave myself a few "to do list"
1) get started with my back to school article
2) design "publyncation"
3) play the guitar
4) bible study
5) watch my japanese drama
6) book driving for next week!

and i'm done everything except bible sudy and i think i'll do it later.
hehe maybe.

screw year 1.

2008-11-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

6 weeks and 1 day more of school till i'm out of the stupid RP's year one. and i so hope that year 2 will be better. it will definately be. it's gonna be pretty exciting year next.
i just submitted my core module selection this morning, for next year's sem 1.
let me tell you my very cool modules.

Computer System Technologies (ok this doesnt sound interesting.)
This module covers the concepts and fundamentals of computer systems and the various software that power computers today. You will learn effective workstation administration and gain an understanding of network technologies.

Principles of Digital Media and Design
This module equips you with a basic understanding and a foundational grounding in digital media and principles. This course will cover a broad range of topics such as the different media and their roles, visual aestheticism, study of colors and typography, photography composition, collateral and website design principles with industry best practices.

Web Multimedia
The module introduces you to the fundamentals of multimedia information systems. The technology, benefits, applications and design issues that arise from the use of multimedia will be studied. Particular emphasis will be paid to the trends towards multimedia delivered on the Web.

Multimedia Programming I
-This module will provide you with a strong grounding in multimedia programming and scripting techniques. This course will address issues of procedural and object-oriented programming and scripting for interactivity and animation.

ok so right now, there's only 4 module. and yes i only need to go to school for 4 days BUT, i'm thinking if i should take a 5th module because year 3's gonna be a killer year for me. With 2 major final year project and also to come out with a portfolio from year 2 sem 2 till the end of my year 3.
okay this portfolio is a replacement of this professional profilling thing, which only consist of 1/2 a year. and yes i'm so gonna do a one and a half year assigment instead of a 1/2 year one because a portfolio will be good for my future/getting a job out there.

SO, should i take a 5th module in year 2 so that i'll be 'free-er' in year three only needing to go to school for 3 days a week instead of 4 days. But of caz i'll be super busy with projects and making a very professional portfolio. HAHA.

HMMM....... i have untill 25 nov to decide.

eighteen, sixty

2008-11-15T02:24:00.004+08:00

hmm been pretty busy lately i think.

well, it was 2 of my favourite people's birthday for the alst two days.
thirteen- KIMBERLY'S EIGHTEEN
forteeth- DADDY'S SIXTY

special years.
it's officially the 18th year of knowing kim
and it's so fast that dad's already sixty.

i was watching tv last week i think, then they played a chinese music video.

A Pretty good one. kinda sad/touching? i dunno. but i just like music videos with a story line. =)

棒棒堂，王子 - 对不起

careful

2008-11-13T00:28:00.003+08:00

lesson of the day:

NEVER EVER KISS IN PUBLIC OR IN FAMILIAR PLACES.

like 2.4km

2008-11-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

endurance lead climbing 3 times without stopping today.
erm it means climbing up and down times 3 and it's also like if you didnt clip the ropes one properly, or the belayer's not alert, it can be pretty dangerous
dangerous because i fell and overturned. like head down. and my belayer flew.
hmm it happened so fast that i cant quite remember how frightening it was.

oh wells it was pretty fun and also was as good as running 2.4km.
the amount of sweat plus breathing was like suffering to end a 2.4km run.
or maybe 2.4km is nothing compared to that.
and i think i finished the whole 3 times in 45mins? including hanging(resting) on rope, without touching the ground.

and for that, i blistered my hand, small scratches here and there and injured the softest part of my body. left's fourandahalf
=(

but it was a good experiences lah. =)

still a monkshillian

2008-11-08T00:46:00.003+08:00

i finally decided to make a trip to balestier hill sec to get my testimonial.
a file that says:
MINISTRY OF EDUCATION
inside has,
graduation cert
my very crappy O level results.
A1 for CCA! =)
and a good testimonial,
cause it ended with,
"she would be an asset to any organisation she joins."

hahhaa =)

oh yah. brother's back from honeymoon and there's alot of japanese snacks at home.
you know like wang wang kind of biscuit and those jap biscuit with seaweed over it.
yupp.

loving it.

i'm super hungry cause i have eat my dinner.
waiting for mummy to get home with food.

be good okay?

2008-10-31T01:32:00.004+08:00

laptop's screwing big time.
i shall bring it for a check up someday.
maybe next holiday.
in RP,
No laptop = No school
not like i cant borrow from the school or something, but i'll prefer to use MINE.
and incase the helpdesk decides to reformat it, i'll rather wait for next holiday.

thinking about it, school holiday's ending really soon.
and i haven had my 4am macdonal's breakfast delivery cause medicine makes me drowsy.
oh wells not fated i guess.

so next holiday's in december and it just have to be a week after lync camp. kill me with going camp and school for maybe 3 days or LESS. =)
oh then i'll go bring laptop to fujitsu for a check up.
for now, be good okay?

and have i not mention that i got my new IC already?

at least i look better in here than the lost one.

photos!

2008-10-30T16:27:00.003+08:00

CLIMB-MAX

SHORT ONE.

2008-10-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

tired siaa.
cause i'm sick and i dont really have that mood to blog.
but just abit will do.

chilling with RP buddies yesterday was pretty cool! =)
and then photos will come in tml.

linette must be healed before saturaday's climb-on.

climb climb CLIMMMBBB

2008-10-26T23:11:00.005+08:00

it's quite depressing actually.
like ever since the injure leg, i haven been doing well, like you know there a fear in me when i'm not confident with my moves. Then seeing other people who you're better than before injury, be coming better than me. well, i cant totally blame the injury lah. Being ME, i never wanted to go for stuff like all the way. or like be the best in something.
you see right, when you're the best, eyes are all on you and when you fail, you disappoint people. and i dont like disappointing people or myself. I prefered to have fun and learn on my own pace.

but actually, not being the top 5 climbers and represent RP, is not as depressing as i've thought. like i've learn how the point system counts by being a route judge and, holding back or keeping quiet wouldnt be good for me, if i want to improve.

linette,
stop shutting up and start learning.
and have fun too.
=)

oh yah. i'm on 1 week school holiday!
=)

honeymoon.

2008-10-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

brother should be in japan now.

AND I WANT TO GO JAPAN TOO!!!

like a new begining

2008-10-21T00:45:00.007+08:00

dinner wasnt too bad lah.
and every chen was in their best look.
=)

and dad got drunk,
very very very very drunk.
see the red faced guy.
yes. =)

part one

2008-10-19T00:33:00.006+08:00

just half a day and it's like freaking tiring already.

well it's indeed a superstitious wedding but being in a family who doesnt really care about such stuff, it made me realised that what bro did or how he sliently followed every superstitious acts, wanted from the in-law's, was a representation of LOVE.

photos will speak more okay?

and it continues tomorrow.....

in

2008-10-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

FIVE HOURS

thirty hours.

2008-10-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

The Bride's

how exciting can it get!
2 more days!
to be exact,
it's 30 hours.

done shopping.
white with bronze flowers.
sweet and innocent.
=)

for brother,
even if i have to wake up at 6:30am
=)

4 more days

2008-10-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

it's in four days time and i'm so gonna be screwed if i dont find a favourite, suitable dress.
other than that, it's so exciting.

newmember newmember newmember.
to the family. =)

watched house bunny with minhui and shandy today. pretty cool show, not too bimbotic and good story line too. not like the typical bimbotic girl who goes poor and gets nothing. hmm something different i guess? go catch it.

xueling better finish her O's fast before i get new movie buddies.

ohoh i finished the edited video too. will upload it when i'm free.

and i'm feeling like i need to be holy, so there comes the music till the laptop's battery dies. and QUIET TIME too.
NOW.
so bye.
=)

stupid pranker.

2008-10-13T23:22:00.004+08:00

i think i have a very weird, funny family.

this stupid person called big bird today and the staff answered and then a women was crying away like damn bad something, like theres an accident.
staff: what happened?!?!? is that shawn?!? is that shawn?......
then a guy took over

guy: WE KIDNAPPED SHAWN. GIVE US $30 000 TO GET HIM BACK.
(quite freaking lah)

ok so that staff told my dad and daddy called bro.
but being bro, he woulnt answer his phone when he's sleeping.
then he called home and maid said he room's lock. means he's at home.

when mummy went big bird. daddy told her.
mummy: yesterday you never come home with him meh?
daddy: yah. but i dunno whether after that he got go out anot what.

later on when bro heard about the whole drama prank call guess what he said?
bro: never call police ar? you mean my life cost only $30 000 meh????

hmmm....

jazz it.

2008-10-12T21:33:00.002+08:00

and i'm back from my very fun busy rushing days.
which actually cause me to pon school for one ok maybe two days.
and pon two climbing days.

and my very perfect video crashed and i had made a new one till 7am on friday or saturaday..
and i'll go edit it and make it perfect before uploading it here.
=)

anyways, I GOT MY CLIMBING SHOES! =)

president's star charity is cool because, I LOVE JAZZ.

My Provider

2008-10-06T01:10:00.004+08:00

you know when you think that God has done enough for you, you tend to be very very greatful. and stop wanting for more.

but somehow it hasnt ended.

i just got another ang pao from my sister-in-law-to-be's parents.
even though today's money is just a little sum,
i now, actually have enough money to buy a rock climbing shoes.
shoes cost between $100 to $150.

and i'm fearing more,
cause when i had the money i wanted a rock shoe but didnt spend the money on it.
and now when i WAS super broke,
i asked Him yesterday watch me as i spend so that i can get a rock shoe before october ends caz there's competition on 1st and 2nd nov.
and Daddy God GAVE.
with extra.
and i dont know what more is He gonna do for me.

8 days ago i had only $30
and now, i have almost $300.

i didnt ask Him for money
i only asked Him to help me survive.

my desires, i thought i couldnt fullfill.
was fullfilled in through Him.
and in this, i see Him in my life.
cause it could only be Him.

like daph's tag:
"my God is a God who provides"

AND I JUST REALISED THAT MY BLOG SONG SAYS SO TOO!!!

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

HUHHHHHHHHHH?

2008-10-04T01:03:00.005+08:00

ok so i started the day with a very ughhhhhh mood.

home
1) bored with my clothes
2) my only suitable sock left has a big hole
3) no money for new ones.

school
4) 3/5 of my group members came
5) one left during lunch
6) two of us to present
7) screwed the presentation.

driving
8) scoldings and scoldings from instructor (but it was good, caz i'll never learn if he didnt scold)

home
9) guitar some how sounded bad
10) super long RJ to write
11) screwed up internet connection
12) photoshop CS3 (trial) didnt want to install into my laptop)

THEN. a moment ago.
bro came into my room and asked me to help him sign up for wireless SG
while signing up talked abit then, he starts looking through my things.
opens my bank book.
bro: WOW got $50 (cash) inside.
lin: that's all my savings plus only $20 in my bank. the bank statement fake one, its not updated.
bro: you not enough money meh?
lin: not enough leh. $70 a week only. jie gets $150 =(

and it ended there caz i change topic to get his personal information for the wireless SG sign up

lin: ayee okay already go check your phone.
bro: (went to get his phone) AYEE GOT ALREADY *THERE*
bro: can change password anot?
lin: changes for him.

lin: DONE.
bro: OK. THANKS. *BANGS MY TABLE REALLY LOUD*
lin: HUHHH????

to realisation,
A really loud bang on my table with hundred dollars.

and i knew
it was Him who answered my desperate prayers.

so in this, i'm going to give 10% of it and 10% of my week's allowance this sunday.
oh and i wont use it but keep it in my bank and maybe just use the $50 to maybe get what I really need. not want.

and i'm happy.
=)

city youth hub

2008-10-01T00:23:00.003+08:00

children's day celebration at youth hub today.
and i think i didnt help much.
other than making some hot dog buns for the kids.
and bringing to the kids to some multi-purpose hall,
hang ballons and aiyah not much lah.

anyways i love the kids, and i love my india boy who i still dunno what's his name.

oh RGPS gang: AJ made a new weird but not to bad creation.
"hot dog bun with chillie, parmesan cheese and CRUSHED POTATO CHIPS."

OHOH AND THERE'S A YOUTH HUB SONG NOW!! COMPOSED BY THIS NEW FUNNY WORKER.
i wonder what's the song title. "city youth hub"?

Never a dull moment

This is where we laugh and play

We are City Youth Hub children

And this is what we're gonna say!

We will live our lives, happily with a smile

And together we will shine everyday

Together with our friends

Hand in hand, with a smile

So come and have some fun today.

Never a dull moment

Soccer and computer games

Soimetimes with have bread and milo

Afterwhich, we run off to play!

psalm 19:14

2008-09-30T00:27:00.004+08:00

900th hundred post.

i learn something new in climbing today.
"Dare To Reach"
it may seem far but if you dare, you'll get it.

or maybe cause i haven recover from my fall fright? that's why i lost my dare.
anyways it's fun. =)

i on the bus getting home today and then i started thinking.
"what the hack is with linette and her major mood swing recently."
so bad that i can burst out the F word anytime.
i remember the last time i spurt it out was last sem when i forgot that my laptop isnt installed and i accidenly disconnected the power. ok it was a very bad moment like "F.. oh shit." and my classmates gave me that HOW UNHOLY look. hah.
it wasnt on purpose. it just came out.

WELL and now, when i mood swing, the words doesnt come out and just hang around my thoughts. and that's bad.
ok i dont believe in changing fuck to "fish" or something. caz to me, the meaning is still there. either i use the words or i dont at all. and i try not to.

okay. so in the bus, i just kept getting pissed off with my mood swing and than getting all unhappy cause i'm mood swinging. kept wondering what's the root cause of it. and maybe i do know but then amazingly, somehow, for a long time, i heard God speaking.
and then this verse, that i pasted on my table's wall, came to mind.

"may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in Your sight, Oh Lord my Rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14

and just this very simple verse where i got it during one day's Quiet Time and decided to write it on a post-it and paste it on the wall, as a reminder, and today, it was powerful to me.
"words of my mouth", "bitterness in my heart, bad thoughts, wether it's being jealous, proud, short temper...."
isnt very pleasing to God.
and i want to be pleasing in His sight once again.

ZOOOOOOOOOOM

2008-09-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

i feel like cracking my bone back into position.

anyways,
not seeing the F1 cars is alright.
the sound of it is more than enough.
=)

got a new laptop bag!

okay.
so last night daddy gave me my coming week's allowance and thinking that i should really save up, i decided to keep $40 into my bank book. and guess what?
i found $30 in it.
i bet i put it in last time and forgot about it.

hmm i should do more of this stuff.
=)

bruises and pain

2008-09-27T02:33:00.003+08:00

climbing, which seem to be giving me more bruisers.
just added a few on my legs.
plus this stupid floorballer wacked his ball and it flew towards the side of my knee. or i'll say just above my healing scratch done by the climbing wall, 4 days ago.

screw that floorballer. because it was freaking pain.

ok then i'm upset with climbing caz the fear of my right leg's preventing me from 'risking' my so call life by doing the very cool jumps from rocks to rocks.
and then the worst part was when being extra careful, i think, i made the pain come back again.
now it feel like it's back to the 3rd of having a sprain ankle, if you call that part an ankle.

sigh.
Daddy God,
can you get me totally healed?

crackle crack

2008-09-26T00:20:00.004+08:00

so moody today that i might just spurt out vulgarities.
i guess i'm just in the UGHHHH WHY IS THING HAPPENING THIS WAY.
kill me out of it please.

leaving that aside,
i think i'm loving my new class day after day.
not like it's wonderful or what but the ppl there crackles me up.
like how audrea happened to be clement ex school mate.
and what's more is that i found that from clement that he said AN IMGINARY ENEMY.

okay then today there was this guy in my group who webcam with his friend.

friend: IHFOIRFJEOIEJRQ39403MDW!
darren: (puts on his HEADphone and spoke UBER LOUDLY in chinese) OIE YOU DONT NEED TO TALK SO LOUDLY RIGHT!!!!
then the whole class stares at him and gave him that "OH I'M SURE YOU'RE NOT TALKING LOUDLY" look.
then he realised everyone's stare and said: oh sorry the mic it's like here (points) lah. super far away.

and little bits and pieces like that has made the class funny-ly cool.

2008-09-25T00:08:00.001+08:00

where's the love tonight?

linette

2008-09-24T00:56:00.002+08:00

i was thinking just now,
that zoom in is actually not the name i wanted to name that 4th fourandahalf. but now i think i know wat to name it.

went climbing on monday and ended with many bruises and scratches. hmm i think it's all from one fall.

linette wants a climbing shoe. and she'll save for a climbing shoe.
linette wants a laptop bag. and mummy might probably provide.
linette drags to find something to wear for bro's wedding.
linette wants to shop without looking at prices.
linette will shoo all temptation away to save money.
linette must never be materialistic.

linette wants to pass her FTT once and for all.
linette hates studying.
linette ate steamboats for the past two days
linette cant shit, cause she's too busy/lazy to get some time to shit.
linette did her IC today.
linette went to shop with mummy for a gown for mummy.
linette thinks mummy is beautiful in her gown.
linette is aching from climbing.

linette is tired of going school. but will continue.

wall of fame

2008-09-20T01:56:00.006+08:00

edited.

4th fourandahalf design's here.
and also the lousiest one.
too lazy to edit it already lah.
maybe one day when i'm free-er and feeling more inspired.
after all i think fourandahalf designs only comes out once a year.

A wall of fame,
something to be proud of.

you stupid spoilt brat.

2008-09-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

super super dead tired in school today.
i dont know why but i think it's telling me that I SHOULD NOT GET A JOB.
i mean if i want a job, i'll get it during the holidays.
BUT, i've already given all my this years' (poly year one) holidays to youth hub.
SO... hmm.

so tired to the extend that i decided to not go for climbing. like usually no matter how tired i am, i'll still be able to go climbing.
so tired that i didnt take my usual less than an hour nap, but 2 hours sleep.

HMM, for now i'll rely on my parents.
i'll repay them back next time.
aye at least i gave them money when i was SERVEing okay.
and i'm only eighteen.
i dont think my bro and sis did that when they were at my age.

meanwhile,
i'll borrow money from sis, secretly, to survive for the next two days.
heh.

you stupid spoilt brat.

screw money.

2008-09-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

driving was cool today. freaking cool.
like how dara kept smiling over playing guitar for the first 9am worship prac,
i was smiling during the 2 hours drive.
but,
pain always comes after joy.
$56 and i could only afford $25.
even the many times that i've hinting to dad that i'm freaking broke already, and he still forgets to give me money.
being me, i hate asking parents for extra money unless i really need it.
and i wont ask again if they dont give me.

checked my bank today and it's left with 30 odd dollars.
with $4 in my wallet for the rest of the week.
i used to have at least $200 in my bank.
but now..

i've never been this broke before.
plus you know i really dont spend much? i'm not materlistic and i seldom shop. k maybe the only thing i spend alot on is food. but how much can i lose from it?

i always wonder how come my friends parents will just give them extra money or at least money for a purpose, without them asking, but my dad will never do that.
dad will never give me extra money, unless he's in a good mood and it only happens twice a year?
mum gives but i cant bare to take from her.
not like my dad doesnt have money or what, but he's never really bothered about my so called hints. he prefers spending for the benifit of a family in whole.

people say the youngest are the most spoilt ones.
but for me, i'm try to be independent because my brother and sister are independent in their own ways, and i try to be like them.
but sometimes, it's hard.
brother respects my parents alot.
sister never ask extra money from them.
bringing them together, if i dont do any of them,
i might be labled.
or i think i used to be labled.

maybe i'll get better when dad gives me money.
hope it's enough.

issumagijoujungnainermik

2008-09-16T00:14:00.006+08:00

issumagijoujungnainermik
not like any ACVENIRAewrjfaoijqou34 that i use but it means
'not being able to think about it any more'
~ forgiveness in Eskimo language.

back to climbing today and i felt like a century behind. but it's only a mth.
oh wells.

hmm i think i have pretty alot of photos to upload and i hope the internet will love me tonight.

friday was one of the most awesome GG gathering ever. and i believe that if JUN, DAPH AND NOELLE were there, it would be even better.
even ppl like shermen went okay.
OH shermen. his first words to joel when he reached was.
not "HI!" but "WOAHHH YOUR MUSCLES SO BIG ALREADY!!!"
and shuan and alvan couldnt help to burst out laughing.
ok me too lah.

i just simple love all of them.
minhui who i'll see almost EVERYDAY,
greatest daph and jun of RGPS gang plus ONE.
joel who's always my very nice angel.
susanna who's my lovely SUSSIE.
claire who's always so loud.
cheryl with her 'hey girl'
alvan who saved me from getting bang into a pillar.
shuan who's shirt is still yet to be pass down to him.
shermen with his weirdness.
noelle with soccer.
siyu who's in love with clement.
clement who's forever so cute.

and i love GG.

i think it's a very lovely shot. just that they werent looking at my camera.

they kept saying we're looking more alike.

God's Gang 2008

internet loves me today.

GG'S DAY

2008-09-12T10:32:00.004+08:00

as much as i hate blogging in school, i still am.
the internet at home hates me.

so later on there'll be a few picture from the dinner 2 nights ago. and i just realised that my coming sister-in-law's surname is TAY not TEO.
okay back to the food, it's darrrrrnnnn good. in fact i think the food is too good (in price wise). at least the taste isnt too bad. But abalone wasnt tat great lah. OH THE DESERT IS FREAAAKKIINNNNGGG GOOOOD. it's "yam with pumkin sauce" sound ughh but darrrrnn nice.
=)

flowers on VIP table.
white's for guest, the nice one is for VIP. ahem, i'm a VIP.
=)
aww he's getting married.

oh bro was saying that he wanted black and red for the VIP table. than i was like yahhh nice! but it's black lah. haha. then guess what he said?
"yah lah then it will be like you, so gothic."
hahah ok. =)

i was being a naughty girl by skipping school yesterday.
because i was too lazy to get up.
like you know you wake up and give 101 reasons why you should or should not go to school.
and i was convince with my reasons for not going to school.
=)

today's GG's day!

Hello i'm Lazy Linette

2008-09-10T00:25:00.003+08:00

and i lost another kg, for doing nothing.
YAY.

okay screwing up my sleeping timings lately, like how i decided to learn some upgrading of cooking skills from bro at 2am last night. =) tried it out jsut now and it went pretty well, except when i cooked finish and my arm accidently touched the stove? you where the fire comes out from? yeah. freakkkinnngg pain okay. and i think it's abit swollen now. well, it's just a little little injury.

my leg's still unwell and i really dunno why. sigh. i want to go back climbing lahhh. anyways my module teacher did some introduction today and we're suppose to come out with something that discribes you whereby that word's first letter is the same as the first letter of you name. and then i was thinking. Lame Linette (literally). ok but i came out with Lazy Linette.
so the game was to introduce youself right that it's like the first person will introduce the teacher then himself. then the 2nd person introduces the teacher, 1st person and himself.
and guess what?
i was the last person.
kill me.
i had to remember 10 or 11 names
let me try it out now.

HELLO Busy Bee!
his name is Young Yong sheng
and he is A... andre
and she is Start Sonia
and she is Innocent Ida
and he is B... Boon siong
and he is J... Jing sheng
and she is W... Wan yun
and she is Happy Hanisah
and he is Wiggly Wai zhan
and she is Ruby Regina
and I AM LAZY LINETTE.

obviously i cant remmeber all. but my memory's isnt too bad lah.
i think.

anyways,
this CHEN family is going to meet the TEOs tml.
which mean we're meeting my bro's soon to be in-laws.
how exciting.
and i'm sure there will be a major communication break down for brother sister and me with the parents TEO.
so much for not teaching us dialect, parents CHEN.
yay anyways i'm looking forward for the FOOOOOD at HYATT!
and because it's hyatt, it better be good.
=)
oh and i'm tempeted to shop before meeting the families, well hyatt's at orchard too right?
oh wells, maybe i wont.

jumpdownanddie

2008-09-09T21:57:00.002+08:00

M: Look at those helicopters! Or is it a Chinook? Whatever, just wish one of those helicopters will come down and send me home. Maybe drop me off at the roof.
L: But if the roof is lock, how can you get home? Jump down and die?

one my very lazy friend that i have.
=)

be sensitive.

2008-09-08T22:51:00.003+08:00

i'm kind of a bad mood right now.
i think it started when someone who's just too insensitive spoke stuff that triggered off my anger.

and i hate such people who does not think before they talk because no matter how un-hot-tempered i am now, does not mean i dont have my that very bad temper anymore.

ok then i got super irritated with family who keeps shouting for me. hate it especially when i manage to settle down and read the Bible or trying to connect with Daddy God.

that's it.

suhgoaehidfoasjc

2008-09-08T01:07:00.002+08:00

i'm freezing under my very cold air con.

few hours ago, i was so freaking sleepy and i hate it when i keep falling asleep instead of getting some entertaiment from the tv.
well cant blame it since worship practice took away my very lovely afternoon nap.

ok so my point is, i'm super energetic now.
or maybe i wont soon after i end this blog post.

lync yesterday WAS...........ishfweoru43oficiuh3erhc. you know sometimes, it's just very very disappointing when i thought that Bible study on ACT has ended and then there'll be a break with more interesting erm like RELATIONSHIPS? FAMILY? hah. OR SOME GUEST SPEAKER? and then you're starting on Bible study again. I'm not trying to say that it's not important to study the Bible. But like must at least get some more worldly related topics? ok even if it's on PRAYER, i wont really mind.

but anyways, crashing the camp comm's Bible study on romans 2:?? was more anointing than lync's sermon.
sigh. still, i dont think it's time for me to leave lync or try out YA.

oh wells.
cell would make up for it. =)

spiritual guitarist.

2008-09-06T02:50:00.004+08:00

HMM. i'm still not in favour of my class. oh wells. thing will get better.
oh the guys are hardworking but the girls are like talking way to much not talk talk but 'talk but dont do work?' ok like "i doooonnntt undeerrrrsstaaannnd" and they leave it there like that. ok at least 1 girl in my grp today was willing to put in some effort. so that was good.

ok i just hope i dont get too DJWIGHJI#R(@#JO with RP's pbl system and starts being irresponsible.
heh.

SO there's this guy in my class who brough his guitar today a classical one and man he can pluck really well.
and you know male musicians melts my heart. HAHAH
(introduction time went like that. you have to introduce you grp mate to your class, name+something about the person.)
and maybe caz i couldnt think of anything to tell my introducer what to say, i said i like musical instruments.

and that's true ok.

so back to the guy who was with his guitar.
during lunch break he ramdomly came to me and asked what instrument i play.
DENG DENG.
ok i abandon my belovered cornet and only said guitar.
anyways he woudnt even know what's a cornet and then i'll have to explain it "a trumpet but smaller."

yeah so he went on saying stuff like how long have you played and other stuff lah.
five years, but only serious last year. plays accoustic, cant pluck for nuts. wants to play for church. blabla

ok here's the DENG DENG part. *WEI JUNNNNN!*

after that he said: "i'm actually trying to form a band, like with one guy from my guitar class also and we're aiming on song of 'i forgot the artist' where they're songs are pretty easy to play...."
LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAT??????????
hahah kill me.
and then i said my guitar skill sucks.

oh yah, i dunno his name. HAHA. =)

okay now i feel like guitaring.
=)

hair is neater.

2008-09-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

cell in church was cool today.
and it was cool caz i didnt expect so many ppl to come,
ok even though there was only 7 of us.
the cell consist of 8 ppl okay.
we're holy people. =)

and i cut my hair today.

how the hack to do pronounce "wai zhan"
it's a name.
some guy from my class.

desert song

2008-09-03T22:37:00.004+08:00

crashing into NUS hostel pdp? or wat you call it lah to celebrate xiao guang's bday with RGPS gang + 1 WAS FREAKING COOL.
simply funny, cool and nerve racking.
i may upload the photo sometime soon or just go to my facebook or ele's and check them out.

someone was nice to lunch with the lonely me today.
screw RP's system of new classes.
and then tomorrow carries on.
with the very very very very packed and slow lift
and also with a long winded Kumaran.
THANKS ARH.
kill me please.

oh new blog song.

like the This Is Our God version thou.

but imeem just have to licence all hillsong's albums.

Desert Song

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

FOOOOOONGGGGGG

2008-09-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

he feels lucky this way.

jinfong's

2008-09-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

yayy. yesterday was kinda fun.
at least it was something normal. =)

ehh edit the post in about 1hr plus time caz there are photos.
so for now, before it's past 12am,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN FONG. =)

Back at 12.23am,
and obviously i'm now too lazy to upload the photos. =)
ok let me blog.

sunday was cool caz it's at the east coast cable ski. ok i didnt ski although it's super super super tempting. but even if my feet wasnt *in the mids of healing* i wouldnt ski too. or mayb i would.
ok forget about it.
anyways the girls FINALLY came.
beehwee,ruiting and vaneza.
great catch ups. =)
well expected more ppl but sighhh.

oh yyahhh i didnt go back to sch for teacher's day caz i was too lazy to get out of my bed. i guess it's really bad to have late sleeping habits during the holidays. like even if i were to be all busy and tired the whole day, i'll end up sleep ehh early. so balme it on holidays.

holidays are ending and please kill me. I DONT WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL AND MAKE NEW FRIENDS ALL OVER AGAIN. i like to talk but new environments shuts me up. and i miss CLASS so much caz i miss the times when i'm darrrrnnnnn bored and not in the sleeping mood, i would walk round the class disturbing almost every classmate. like you know "pick up lines." ahem christmas play. or just disturb.

for this RP sucks.

and then since tml's the last day of my holiday,
my mum suggested that i should RENEW MY LONG LOST IC.
i went to the website yesterday and it said.
"Singapore Citizens and Permanent Residents who have lost their Identity Cards are required to report the loss and apply for a replacement in person within 14 days. "
i reported lost of IC on the 4/6/2008
kill me please.

oh and it's gonna cost my dad a hundered bucks.
kill me another time.

sigh i hate taking so much money from parents.
and i was thinking just now,
WHERE DID ALL MY 3 MTHS OF SERVE MONEY WENT!
$1500 and i'm left with less than a hundred.
sigh. better spend less.
AND I'M STILL THINKING OF SHOPPING TML.
MAYBE, I CAN GET BUDGET STUFF FROM BUGIS TOMORROW.
=)

eighth hundred

2008-08-29T00:05:00.004+08:00

having eight hundred posts in this blog is really ALOT.
and the soon it will get to a thousand.
kill me.
and i guess if i start to look back, i've matured alot in writing a blog entry through these erm 4 years?
maybe it can really tell how i've even matured through these years too.
well i should go through my begining post till this 800 post some day.

800. kill me.

ANYWAYS, I'M GOING BACK, WITH A FEW CLASS PPL, TO balestier hill TO MEET THE TEACHERS TOMORROW.
oh yah on the way collect my long dued testimonial.
i hate balestier hill.

pictures speaks a thousand words
and i mean it.
so dont anyhow cut ppl's photo out to do stuff or the story behind it will be gone.
or please ask first.

a home of love.

2008-08-28T03:14:00.004+08:00

IKEA WAS COOL CAUSE THERE WAS DAPH AND WEIJUN
=)

YOUTH HUB WAS COOLER CAUSE I LOOOVEEEE THE KIDS.
"TEACHER! I WANT TO BOOK COM/Wii/XBOX!!!!!"
"TEACHER! PASSWORD!!!" (for the computers)
"TEACHER! HE'S LEAVING WITHOUT SIGNING OUT!!! then boy goes out and shout AYE YOU NEVER SIGN OUT!!!"
"TEACHER! YOU STAY HERE AND PLAY YOUR GAME, I ASK OTHER TEACHER TO TYPE THE PASSWORD!!!"
"TEACHER IS MSN-ING A NACKED MAN!! HAHAHAHAHAHA" kill me.

no matter how noisy or how the many numbers of time they were like speaker to my ears,
i still love them.
youth hub's just simply a home of love.

and how i was really touch by this very young P6 boy who used to be a very hmm paikia caz he mixed with the wrong company. and then, a councellor manage to talk him out of these stuff and SO, he's thanking her by giving her a teacher's day card.

so sweet okay and i just love such things when someone actually manage to change for the good caz of someone's words.

and that's the reason y i really want to be a social worker or a psychologist cause i've always have the passion to be someone help those who are hmm, lost or ostricised by society.
and i'm sure Daddy God has His way even thou what i'm doing in poly now, has nothing to do with what i want.
=)

weijun!

2008-08-27T03:43:00.002+08:00

i'm suppose to sleep by 330am.
but weijun just have the perfect ability to make me sleep later.
first it was gulielmucci then it was julian's facebook birthday invitation and it almost went to *TOP SECRET*

HI JUN! =)

seems like i'll loner shop at ikea tml. =)
ok i'm going to sleep now caz i'm gonna have a lunch date with AJ.
kill me.

ANYONE FOR IKEA?!

2008-08-26T02:24:00.002+08:00

tired.
i slept at 7am erm this morning.
=)

i'm going YOUTH HUB this wednesday. erm to meet AJ and also, I'M GOING IKEA AFTER THAT. ANYONE WANTS TO GO IKEA?!?!?!?!?!?! =)

oh anyways, last sunday, AJ msged me asking what happened to me caz she heard that i didnt go lync and also she didnt see me at 9am.
GRRR. and i went lync okay.
anyways, I THINK I KNOW WHO'S HER IMFORMER ALREADY.
=)

UH983UJED.

2008-08-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling really really really tired today.

lets me blog about yesterday.
drag some time after church to catch the fireworks at 9pm.
MINHUI you know the fish and chips place at clark quay? IT'S NOT NICE LAHHHHHHH.
OK.
fireworks was cool. has pictures but just to lazy to upload them. maybe tomorrow.

went to yakun caz ben peh wasnt full and sastified with the fish and chips.
took a bus home, WHICH WAS FULLY PACKED. and i hate SUPER SLOW TRAFFIC.
and then i've made a decision.
"when i get married and have babies, I'VE NEVER EVER GONNA TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT like buses or train."
it's super super troublesome okay. the strollers are like heavy plus bulky.
a car or taxi would just sastisfy me

okay so i was darn irritated with the super crapped up traffic and stupid driver who just can drive and stop properly. so called dad, ask him to wait for me at balmoral and get a comfortable ride home.
so, dad was hungry, what's new, wanted to go fish boat but closed. SO, he suggested scissors rice.
AND DENG DENG!!!!!!!!
THAT'S TOTALLY ALONG BEN TAN'S BIRTHDAY PUB.
decided to boo or wat so ever him BUT GUESS WHAT THIS STUPID BRITHDAY BOY WAS HAPPILY BEING LATE AND HIS CELEBRATERS WENT FOR SCISSORS RICE WHILE WAITING. scissors rice, kill me.
and i love it so much caz i really really really miss CLASS. although i just saw them 2 weeks ago.
howard, jim, jin qiang, nick ng, ben poh and SEHNG WEI (the surprising friend)
MAN I LOVE THEM.
IT'S LIKE GETTING BACK HOME.
stupid ben tan and jinfong. grrrrrr.
well i still love them all.

anyways,
TODAY: went to EFC's 30th anniversary celebration at suntec and DENG DENG. gurmit singh was there to give his testimony. and yes it's a very very strong and powerful one. and do you ever know that gurmit singh CAN SING?!?!!?! like super well okay.

being lazy.

2008-08-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

gonna change my blog song.

anyways as chalet memories slowly comes back, i think the best part for me was playing SPEED with the 3 noobs, when almost everyone went out. funny funny funny.

okay. SO i'm suppose to be at fatty's chalet but i'm too lazy to go. IT'S AT PASIR RIS OKAY. and i just came back from there yesterday.
and then there's ben tan's party tml. and i'm super reluctant to go. caz it's at a pub and i'm not in the mood to drink or even be at such atmosphere.
mayb, i'll drop by and say happy birthday or something. =)

my greatest regret today is by missing the women's 4X100m finals and falling asleeping during the 4X100m mens finals.

GRRRR. oh i saw fireworks FROM MY HOUSE TODAY. =)

chalet

2008-08-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

WELL, i'm back from chalet.
and it wasss pretty good i guess?
maybe not the drunken ppl part and the handling of it.
i miss the times when me and daivd were the willing ppl to keep watch of those drunkens laugh over their silly doings.
troublesome but fun.
last night was troublemsome and not fun.

OH WELLS at least there was great fellowship.
=)

and still my heart isnt fully for E3G5. so i'm not really 'crying' for the spilting of us.
maybe i would if i get into a very very sucky class in 2 weeks time.

it still sucks to make new friends.
sigh. cant i stick with the old ones?

Michael Guglielmucci is such a fake.
i wonder what went through him when he was lying.
sighhh.
great song. fake testimony.
all i'll say is "blame it on the last days."
SIGHH

chalet.

2008-08-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

i'm going off for my class E35G's chalet tml so i'll be away for two nights.
jun dont miss the late nights without me! =)

anyways, i'm really really lazy to pack. or like go for it. but thinking of since it's a class chalet and it means having some time as a class for 3 days, wether there's a 'activity' or not, i still think that it will be good to go.
not like CLASS (5n3) ever had any activity during a chalet or what.

ok so james's dad is fetching tml and for once, i feel good about stying in bukit panjang. =)
and i'll pack my stuff later tonight or something.

i like to watch olympic's athletics.
fast and exciting.
will be missing it for 2 nights.
sighhh.

girl with little pain.

2008-08-18T01:43:00.003+08:00

i guess the craziest thing that could happen in this household is when everyone is trying to keep a secret from dad.
=)
well, almost got busted 2 times today.
my maid and bro.

OH, i'm currently taking this SUPER UBER DIGUESTING CHINESE MEDICINE, which is actually doing LOTS of help.
for this i'm sure,
chinese phycisians are probably better than western ones, in certain ways.

AND YUP, I'M MUCH MUCH BETTER ALREADY.
now's the psychological part plus more healing.
too fast huh.

ANYWAYS, i went to THE church today. urmm Covenant Evangelical Free Church and it's pretty good lah. sermon's speaker was good. and like the weirdest thing was OFFERTRY WAS DURING ANOUNCEMENTS.
like
"okay now we'll have offertry."
then he continued with a whole lot of anouncements.
anouncenments ended THEN there was the offertry prayer.

no offertry song,
no stupid offertry sermon lke some other independent churches.

but dont worry, i dont have any plans of jumping over.
=)

girl in much pain.

2008-08-17T00:05:00.003+08:00

what could be better than falling from half a level high on two feets where one stupid feet fell into a small hole, caz the mats wernt close enough.

sway, i say.

NOW,

short distance seems like it's never ending plus my usual walking speed is actually quite fast.

so,

i think hopping is so much better.

just make sure i dont fall, again.

i like the smell of chinese ointment but not the taste of chinese medicine.

and dad still doesnt know about my leg.

HEHE.

breaking bones

2008-08-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

i'm suppose to go climbing and break some fats down.
BUT, i broke my ankle's bone.

like when i fell there was this "CRRRRAAACKKKK" sound. kill me.
so what so i do now?
i dont want to show my mum my FREAKKINGGGG PAINFULNESS.
or she'll nag like what she did just now.
"YOU BETTER GO AND THINK ABOUT YOUR SAFTY."
"but i'm fine with it what."
"UP TO YOU THEN."

GRRRRR. kill me.
and yes i'm totally fine with a sprain ankle.

k i better hide this from dad or he'll might probably never ever let me climb again since he's already so against it erm more than mum.

and should i go church tml?
i'm on duty.
sighhhhh.

table tennis reminds me of song chuan.

the long list

2008-08-15T01:32:00.006+08:00

and here i am bloging for the 3rd time 12 hours under my super cold aircon with a stupid internet singnal back at POOR.
i just feel like expressing some thoughts ok. or maybe cause i'm way too bored and trying to find some life in this boring holiday. and everyone not online late cause there's school or school has started. ERM except jun who's online as late as ever. or like saying that she's going to go off and sleep but 1hr later, she's still online.
SO maybe i'll stop bumming and go for climbing tml since i'm walking up later and later since holiday started. thinking about it, holidays just started yesterday, if you're taking today as thursday. HAHA.

Sleeping at 4am rocks okay and better if i'm waking up after 12 or like not putting any alarm clock cause i just want to sleep as much as i can but then for the past 2 mornings i've been waking up at 11am naturally and then forcing myself to sleep back. And then the next time that i wake up, it's already in the late 15th hour.
jumps out of bed making sure that i dun sleep too much. even if i dont have the beautiful 12hrs of sleeep. SO getting back to rock climbing, i'll wake up at 3 plus, get myself in school, abit late doesnt matter, and by 9pm or earlier. what a perfect what to stop buming and lead a healthy lifestyle. and of caz lose some stupid fats.

taking abt fats,
BRO'S WEDDING IS IN TWO FREAKING MONTHS!! damn i need to get more fats off me. and i've realised that sister is losing some massive weight. ok tat's because she's taking some sliming thing as well as eating really little. FOR ME, i dont buy such methods. I just cant take it when i'm eating too little, making my body consumption go haywire. DO YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU CUT DOWN ON CARBO TO LOSE WEIGHT, YOU'LL GET FATTER THAN BEFORE AFTER GETTING BACK TO YOUR ORGINAL DIET, THINKING THAT YOU'VE LOST SO BEAUTIFUL WEIGHT??
well i rather live a healthy lifestyle and really lose all the stupid fats to get in shape. =)

oh yah bro's wedding. tat day i was with mum where she was outside a shop checking out some growns.
then she asked me, "are you gonna wear something like these for shawn's wedding?"
so i said: "do i have a choice?"
sighhhh. i cant even be bothered checking out nice ones. and and and and SIGHHHHHHHHHH.

OKAY SO HERE'S THE LIST OF WHAT I'M GONNA DO THIS HOLIDAY:
met AJ sometime.
GO YOUTHHUB.
i'm kind of in a drama mood so WATCH SOME DRAMAS.
CLIMB.
DRIVE.
CLASS CHATLET. (19-22 aug)
BUY CLOTHES.
GET AN ORGANISER.
GUITAR.
READ THE BIBLE.

ok that's about it i think.
yes READ THE BIBIE.
i've decided to start on it yesterdaysince it's the holiday and it might probably spur me on reading the Bible (that i've been trying to do since jan, SERVE days.) and yes I LOVE THE BIBLE. IT'S SUPER INTERESTING OKAY!

started from stratch. that's Genesis.
and i think it's really really wonderful when you decide to give that time to God and let me speak to you through HIS WORD. like how i've found out some cool stuff.
you know like usually ppl will just read through the few chapters of Genesis and just how i've found out that (chapter 2:27) "GOD MADE US IN HIS IMAGE" ok not that i never heard of it before but it's just very very shallow in my thoughts. SO YEAH, WE ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE GOD! and maybe all the imperfects in the world that we are in i think we've sort of look different from God. ok He made EVERYONE different. hahah. anyways then i was thinking. you know in revelations it says that when you get into heaven, you'll be perfect and all? so i was thinking since we're made in God's image, where God is so perfect, and when we're perfect will we look like Him??

HAHAHA OK I'M DOUBTING MY FANTASY. it's just some of my wild thoughts.
see what happens when you dont go through PROPER BIBLE STUDY.
i'm sure we dont look look like God, just the features i guess like one head, two eyes, two hands, one body, two legs, two ears..........
if not, how is He gonna make everyone specially different?

okay i'm gonna get a hot bath now and do my QT and Bible reading!
Daddy God,
continue to speak to me through Your Word!

trying to get harmonies without the melody is SOOOO HARRRDDD!!!!

stupid router.

2008-08-15T00:35:00.005+08:00

STUPID ROUTER DOESNT WORK WELL FROM THE DISTANCE AFTER MY SISTER'S ROOM.
AND SO I'M USES A POOR INTERNET SINGAL THAT CAN CAUSE ME TO BE DISCONNECTED ANY TIME.

SO WITH MUCH ANGER,
UFAQYW*^(*^(&*yhjNoJiut^&%&^%*(*)(jGYUGBOIU^$^%7675780nit^%*(U.

but weridly,
it's working at good now.
maybe bro did something after hearing my complains.
i bet it will get back to POOR soon.
JIUR#($!(#EJ(#U%($^TERE)#%$*.

berry berry is nice okay.

2008-08-14T17:29:00.002+08:00

just remembered something

yesterday at worship cell, elisha took out this coupon saying
"ONE FREE TUB OF BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM"
then later on he asked: "is berry berry nice?"
DENG DENG!

it's my favourite B&J ice-cream but obviously no one likes it so they took it off sales AND GAVE IT AWAY FOR FREE!.

kill me.
SMG: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

where are you heading to?

2008-08-14T00:49:00.005+08:00

was suppose to meet AJ for lunch today for some, talk. haha.
but youth hub's close for a week caz some kid contracted hfmd.

my computing faci wrote some "WHAAAAAAAAT" last words for me.
"Hi Linette,I wish you all the best in your studies. Also if possible, try to look out for your future partner that can share your joy and happiness with you."
LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
I THINK IT'S DAMN FUNNY.

anyways, went to church for worship cell/practice today and on the way to church i saw something in the bus.

does only good works bring you to heaven?
it's a no to me.
Daddy God said to believe in Jesus, and i'll go to heaven.
but of caz when you believe in Jesus you gotta be a good christian too.
=)

so where are you heading to after you die?
i'm going to heaven and meet Daddy God.
=)

all wrong?

2008-08-13T01:38:00.005+08:00

it's the end of the school semester and the class is changing soon.
thinking about it, i didnt put in much effort in getting close to my classmates and am i regreating?
maybe not.

there's surely many good times in E35G.
being named as "christian" wasnt as fearing as i tot it would be.
and many laughters with great people.

But still, i dont have that "I LOVE E35G!!!!!!!!!" feeling.

i guess the problem just lies with me.
i hate getting into new environments and making new friends all over again so i enter the class with a why bother getting close to someone or expressing more of me to the people. so many times, i've even disallowed people from knowing me.
Of caz there were times that i felt loney and all but it wasnt a very big problem to me. i think.
I hate leaving scenes. and i dont like putting in all my effort into something which probably will only last for a short period of time, at least the leaving thoughts wouldnt cause much effect on me.

i dont fancy wasting efforts.
thinking that giving care and concern to people who you thought they will treasure, never really worked out after seperations, well thats for me.
things come and go.
and i hate the go part.

and it's not that i dont like making new friends and all, but for me, it takes alot of time caz i prefer knowing people from the inside out and by the time i start to see the inside, it's already too late.

did i did it wrongly from the day i entered E35G?
the heart is just empty right now,
because i chose not to fill it up.

thousand words

2008-08-11T21:31:00.009+08:00

i believe that pictures speaks a thousand words.
and there are still more but it's not in the com yet.
=)

the future sister in-law's birthday
sister, me, brother
sister's 22nd
the old room

24/1/2007
(from my current room's window.) the blue one is the church i was talking about.
table
layout.

NATIONAL DAY CUM HOWARD'S 18th
flight show

DEAREST CLASS.
this explains that i dunno half of them.

and the snap shot flyer.

AND I BAKED.

10 AUG 2008

HAPPY 18TH HOWARD!

2008-08-10T21:51:00.004+08:00

yesterday was cool.
and i think, i should learn that i should not drink and then go home by the ulu streets by myself, wether i'm drunk or not.
hah.
thinking about it, i've never been drunk before. like no matter how much i've been trying to weigh my liquor limits, i dun seem to lose my senses or something.
mayb i'm just a good liquor holder?
hahahah

too many things to blog yet too lazy to.
will upload photos tml or something.

i baked.