J-WALKER!

joshua challange wasnt too bad afterall pretty fun infact!!=)
everyone was in a high mood, alittle messed up hall tat made me leave my Bible in church.

went with daph n cyn for their lunch.

n on my way back to church with daph.

u noe the traffic light from raffles city to my church.

its like a heavy traffic road lahh.

caz cars r coming from sun-tec city there.

so its almost impossible to j-walk.

N THEN I MET THIS SUPER PRO J-WALKER

HE HAPPILY CROSS THE HEAVY TRAFFIC ROAD WHEN THE LIGHT IS

RED.

N PLUS HE DIDNT RUN ACROSS OR SOMETHING.

HE WALKED AT A CONSTANT, SLOW SPEED.

being in tat area for 7 years, he's the first person i've seen who j-walks on tat road.

DAMN PRO LAHHH!!!

long ago

more than a year ago i send someone something n tat person replyed me with this

hey. really shocked to hear frm u. its okie.i dintbear any grudges against u. well im glad tteverything's over now. :) yeah i heard abt the 'separation' btwn u guys, its really ok.. trust God leave ur worries to him.. im sure u all would be fine soon. trust me i did tt. im sure u know of this verse tt goes smthg like when ur enemies is thirsty, give him water.. when he's hungry give him food.. and he'll burn wid shame.. smthg like tt.. (u should be more familiar wid this i guess) they're arent ur enemy so this means all the more u should try to help them when they are in need if possible.. i think this is a test frm God.. just press on.. im sure they'll come to sense soon..


OH YEAH N I FORGOT TO BLOG THIS take it as its the 29 june now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIM!!=)

soft hearted?

SUSHI MAKES MY DAY. cold storage at novena's sushi rocks!


SO now i wonder y i'm always so soft hearted. sometimes i really want to break ties with ppl but sometimes i start feeling tat i need to help them or something. its not the first time already.
but its good issnt it?

anyways for some reasons,
i think i'll make a good private investigator.=)
haha.

still missing IXUS 60.

hana kimi..

i almost died without internet for the pass 3 days.

LALALA

i dunno wat to blog but i juz want to post something.=)

oh i'm chocking by smoke. my maid left the fire on while steaming something then got no more water in the pot. so smoke came out. ALOT of smoke. dun understand y she use the pot to steam food.

hana kimi jap version. y got so many ppl one? OGURI!! (the guy on the right, but first can u find the girl? should can right!?) weijun! haha i hope u can differentiate HAH! =)

TEGOMASS

SHIRLEY! TEGOMASS! HAH.=)

masuda on the left n tegoshi on the right.
=) haha cute cute!

IXUS60!!!! XIAO GUI!=)

pure worship, pure heart.

i borrowed 2 books today.
=)
yes knowing that i take my own SWEET time to read godfather. i decided to stop wasting time n get books from the library tat has a dateline.

after church went library with mum.
after library we walk towards bugis.
HAH N GUEES WAT.
this old lorry stocked with vegetable broke down in the middle of the cross section of the road.
hahah i think tats the most sway place for a car to break down lahh.
the 2 lorry guys tried pushing but cant.
then this REALLY NICE guy went to help them n yeahh it moved!
n stupid cars kept horning caz the cars arent moving.

I MISS MY IXUS60
stupid of me who forgot to bring the cable for kim.
ROAR.!

this song in my blog is called [爱的主旋律] haha hanyu is Ai de zhu xuan lu simply putting hanyu caz i myself dun noe wat those last 2 words are=)

by xiao gui and zhou wen xuan thats them.

ok he looks weird there.
i think xiao gui is SUPER CUTE!=D ahhhhhhh.....
=)

part 1

ok so i'm seperating today's post into 2.

went to sch today for geog.
woke up at 750am when geog starts at 8am hahah
dad send me. n reach sch abt 840am.
went to geog class n the first thing tat came into my mind was.
"WHAT ONLY 3 PPL INSIDE?!?!?!"
yeah so plus me only 4 ppl went for geog.
it was pretty productive compared to monday's lesson.
=)
OH i didnt noe tourism is tat HARD!!
wonder if i should start studying development.
hah sisterhood's favourite topic!

okk then went to find ms chong with si hao n sheng wei.
ate with them.
DID MY POST 'GO' CARD! finally.
(i'm thinking if i should get a OCBC card since i have an account which my mum used to put my angpao money in.) its untouchable.
yeah they were really nice to wait for me.
then meet xueling at orchard at 1pm?
n u noe wat its the first time i going out with my friend this holiday.
damn guai right.
but yes its really boring at home.
bought a pants.=)
$43
CUT HAIR!! yes finally
my hair is super screwed tat i dun mind screwing it more n make myself look more messed up.
anyhow tie my hair. mum said i look like a mad women. hah
yes juz screw the hair more since its already screwed.
cant b bothered to make it neat with hairband n pins, its already screwed.
didnt tie tat much caz i dun want rubber band lines.
i have enought natural curles.
=)

SAW FOOD 'pa sa ma lam' IN FAR EAST.
YES I LOVE IT.
bought the 20 non chillie ottah,
4 tea eggs
2 cheese sussage.
n shared a shark fin soup with xueling.
the amount of shark fin inside is countable.
rush home so tat i can give bro his tea eggs b4 he goes to work.
=)

its really weird.
i slept at 4plus yesterday.
woke up at 8am today.
reach home at 645pm.
complaining tat i'm tired when i was out.
n now its 342am n i DONT feel tired at all.
if i have my own room i'll choose to study now.
but sis is happily sleeping.

i hope i can adjust my sleeping time for sch on sunday.

i'm a night person. but i dun have space at night.
SIAN.

more than a story

part 2
its so so cool tat me n jun juz amazingly have the same blog song. it wasnt planned.

shall talk abt the song first.

i actually was in love with this song when one day i decided to change my phone songs. so i pick out some songs, listen to some song n yeah i heard this song. this been in my com for like dunno how long already but i dunno y i juz didnt notice the lyrics.

its really really nice!
it spoke to me not exectly the same as the song.
i follow the rules
but i dunno the Bible much
sometimes to others i seem to noe alot abt christ being so 'holy' n all. but seriously i dun think i noe tat much abt God n i dun think i'm tat holy as wat my sch friends thinks.
my knowledge of God is not there yet. yes i need to read the Bible.
'He's more than a story, more than words on a page of history'
theres so many thing i still need to learn
i want to reach out but yet it doesnt seem to b the thing i'm good in.
n now i can only PRAY i'll read the Bible when O's are over.
it sucks when i say i dun have time for God.

its always been this tat i've been too self centered. although theres alot of difference in the years already but yet sometimes it pops out again.
like how i hate it when my sis touches stuffs that i buy home before i touch it.
i dunno y but i always have this thing tat i must touch the thing i buy first b4 anyone eles can touch it. unless i allow u to touch it first lahh.
yeah it happens with anything. clothes, stationary, accessories n even food.
like i hate it when ppl digs into my stuff tat i bought b4 me, without my permission of caz.
u noe "zi dong"

so weird.
ok.

MOCKing exam

mock exam finally lift up to its name.

happy overslept by 15mins so i decided to take a cab down for Amaths mock exam. cost me $5 gave the driver 10cents tips. hah. ok THEN i happily walk towards class n guess wat i saw nick ng n haidar studying POA n guess wat nick ng told me "my amaths mock exam is canceled!" yeah yeah nick ng. pure joker. mayb he's cheating me. but NOOOOO its real lahh!!

caz very few ppl went for the oneandahalf hrs lesson so the teacher decided to cancel it! ROARRRRR PLZ LAHH lesson ends at 930am n i have to wait till 1230 for the mock exam to start. i can even wait idle for 1hr dun talk abt 3hrs. so i decided not to go for the lesson. n PLUS i'm the only Amaths girl in class how to spend my 3hrs? i rather sleep at home.

STUPID MOCK EXAM.
wasted my 5 bucks
thanks for mocking me.

BUT luck i didnt take bus to sch or i'll kill anyone i meet. cant imgine walking up the hill to sch or mayb if i miss my bus i'll b waiting for 20mins for the next bus.
lucky i decided to sleep more n take a cab BUT BUT MY FIVE BUCKS.=(

N LUCKY today's my maid birthday so i decided to head down to novena to get her something. not a cake but muffins!=)
somehow related right?
she ate the banana one=)
n its really nice!!!!

still stupid mock exam! n no one told me it's canceled lahhh.

anyways after buying stuff, bus-ed to newton to change bus saw bryan from the opposite side. by the time i got over he left, with his bus.
msged him.
lin: u didnt tell me mock exam its canceled!
bryan: u didnt ask wat. ask n u shall recieve.

HAHA RIIIGHHHHHHHT......
i asked the timetable.

mock-ed

Krispy Kreme

IF U GO TO AUSTRALIA,
GO GET DOUGHNUTS FROM KRISPY KREME.

hahahah bro's friend specially brought back donuts from aust n yes i can say its really really good. the glazed donut which i had was OH MAN WONDERFUL. put it in the microwave for juz 10 secs n u'll see the cold donut with dry sugar on in changing to warm donut with melted suger. OH MANN so simple yet so WONDERFUL.

yes KRISPY KREME is it!
from australia!
better than dunkin doughnuts n even donut factory.

YUM YUM I FEEL LIKE EATING ANOTHER ONE. BUT THERE'S ONLY 3 LEFT IN THE FRIDGE.
must seek bro's consent when he comes back.

YUM YUM=)
if i had my cam with me i'll b picturing it n post it up here.
its with kim.

LOONG

my hair is pretty screwed.
i think i'm going to tie it.
n yeah it will b really messy.
afterall i like being alittle messy so yeah.=)
but aiya i might cut it soon caz its really really screwed.

very tired. lazy to blog.
oh anyways i'm watching this taiwan music award thing.
its super long lah.
3.5 hrs???? n tats the presentation ONLY.
anyways gonna record the whole thing tml
from walk of fame (red carpet)
to the award presentation
to off stage tidbit
to concert

so everything was live yesterday except then concert which is showing now by delayed live telecast)


yeahh so theres this whole repeat thing tml
from 830AM to 3pm
HAHA i hope the tape can record tat LONG.
7hrs??? haha
=)

i got sch tml.

ROTI!

its been a week since the eye haven been lasered.
so i'm going to test my eyes towards the sun now.
going out to buy some stuff from the petrol station.
yes thats the nearest "shopping place" around this area.
n its like 1 bus stop away.
ANYWAYS after tat i shall buy roti prata home for dinner.
hope to b home by 7pm for the chl 8's show.
=)

ps: holiday study plans shall b extended to end on june.

patience.

sometimes i lose patience but i'm glad friend has looked forward.
sorry for losing patience n not b by ur side to support u all the way.


ANYWAYS kim's a checkpoint now. n i'm going to her house later to get me dunkin donuts! and yes of caz my sweaty, skinky, clothes tat i've left there since last week, unwashed.


DONUTS!=)

THAT ROAD.

some thoughts tat have been in my mind for a few days. on sat during worship Daddy God told me something. something like even thou i feel tired n lost, He will keep pulling me towards Him thru the wonderful things tat He has create for me.

u noe things came pass my mind like why do i always have so many cool testimonies to say in lync even when sometimes i juz dun feel like going up front to give anymore testimonies. But u noe Daddy God have been really good to me. whenever i'm down whenever i dun feel right in sch or in church He juz cheers me up with so many of the cool things that happens around me.

like for my eyes i tot it was one of the greatest thing He have done for me.

one day i was reading my QT n it was about the route tat God have pave for me. then it kept me thinking. the road is hard to walk thru, many obstacles to overcome. although sometimes i'll walk out of the path but Daddy God will always pull me back to his way.

then i was reminded of wat He told me during sec 3 camp?.
the obstacle challange
-the ropes tat was tied on me to keep me safey. n Daddy God is juz like those safty ropes tat will keep me safe. when will i fall He will hold me n never let go of me unless i cut this rope, i'll b in danger.
-the obstacles that i finish is juz like His routes. when u finish all the obstacles u'll feel a sense of accomplishment tat u have made it. BUT in God's route of caz its more joyful.=)

OK HAHA hope u get wat i mean caz my cousin juz came for 10 mins n distracted me. now i cant think properly.

STILL, i'll never let go of the rope tat links me to Daddy God caz i noe once i let go of Him, i'll b in deep trouble.

motivating myself..

my head is starting to spin.
i think it got something to do with the eye.
shall go get some rest.
white kills my eyes i need to see more black stuff.

BUT today shall b my last day resting caz from tml onwards i'll start MUGGING.
wake up by 2pm, study in the afternoon. play at night. if can study again after 10.

oh wanted to go out n study but friend decided not go study hard.
anyways mum prefers me to stay at home n b away from the dusty surrounding or the sun light.
i dun mind going out to study with a friend even with all this i seriously dun but if i get crap talks the wats the point.

SO i'll try to get rid of all dictractions at home n study HARD.

my aim for this holiday.
-finish at least 1/2 of all my 10 years series. better if i finish all of the tys.
(Emath, Amaths, bio, phys)
- READ up on geog (i think there's this geog thing is me juz tat i dun want to hmm take it out?)
-READ READ READ if can READ english newspaper too.

oh crapppp i forgot to buy zhaobao for tml's tuition. SHEESH.

please

mum said its puppy love.
i say its retarded love.
caz when 1 person gets their life 'destroyed' over a break up or a meaningless love, its damn retarded.

n i hate fake talks.
n i hate it when ppl dun see my point of scolding.

if u noe who you are
please.
wake up.

laser hurts

eyes are getting tired from using the com.
i cant see too much light.
too much sunlight gives me headache.
caps/sunglasses needs to b ON.
cant move the eye ball to much or it will hurt.


HOW GREAT.

God is GOOD, ALL THE TIME.

a song suddenly comes to me

God is GOOD, ALL THE TIME

put a song of praise
In this heart of mine;
God is good all the time,
Through the darkest night
His light will shine.
God is good,
God is good all the time.

If you’re walkin’ through the valley,
And there are shadows all around;
Do not fear, He will guide you,
He will keep you safe and sound,
‘Cause He has promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you, and His Word is true.

We were sinners, so unworthy,
Still for us He chose to die,
Filled us with His Holy Spirit,
Now we can stand and testify
That His love is everlasting
And His mercies they will never end.

indeed He is good.
went to see an eyes specialist today caz since the lump came into my left eye lid, my degree drop by 100 but GP says it shouldnt happen so i was recommanded to go to this eye clinic where my dad's cousin who works as a nurse there.
they did a full eye check for me.

waited for SUPER long. went there at 11am n finally saw the doctor at 1pm. doc check both of my eyes n said my drop in degree will go back to normal after some time. THEN he did a thorough check when he realised there's something wrong with my RIGHT eye. after further check he found tat my retina has a hole

got this from the internet

What is a hole in Retina of eye? How it affects vision and is there any cure?

A hole in the retina is a tear in the retina of the eye. It affects the vision by causing black spots in the persons field of vision. in other words there will be a black area in the same place where ever the person looks. if it is diagnosed in time laser surgery can correct the problem before it gets worse. if left untreated the entire retina can become detached and vision may be lost permanently. even with the laser surgery there will still be some vision lost in the area where the tear was repaired.

lucky mine was found early or yeah i might get blind some day.

he did a laser for me WHICH HURTS. ok it stings lahh but PAIN lah. till i got home the pain is still in my head. went to sleep woke up n i felt much better.=)

i mean God's been really good to me. if i didnt have the lump in the eye lid n a 100 degree drop i wouldnt have gone to an eye specialist. n my dad's cousin works there so we had a 20% discount. still expensive thou. but always better than getting blind. =)

OH then they put this eye drop in ur eye which makes ur pupil bigger so like yeahh hahah its really big n like u become something like long sighted with my glass on i can see FAR stuff but cannot see near stuff. really cool! haha ohoh n they use eye drop like water. they used like at least 4 different types of eye drops on me.

ANYWAYS THE HOSPITAL IS SUPER COOL. HAVE U EVER TAKEN A CAR LIFT??? DAMN COOL LAHH. ITS SO QUITE TAT U DUN EVEN NOE U'VE REACH TAT LEVEL TILL THE DOOR OPENS. DAMN COOL!! HAHAH BUUT I WAS THERE FOR ABT 4HRS N PARKING COST ABT $18. HAHA.

BUT EYE CHECK TODAY WAS FUN! HAH EXCEPT FOR THE LASER WHICH STINGS!

sixjune07'

sixjune07'

ONG WEI JUN

CHARMAINE LIM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

=)

stupid skin.

i'm very sad.

caz i cant have my face facing the hot sun anymore or my fore head's skin will start to crack/scale/swell.

tat means i cant can b under a super hot sun without a cap for more than 15mins.
so wat no more beach-ing n get sun burn?
=(


i hope the medicine works fast.

RUUUUUUUN.............

today is drill n ring day.

went bishan stadium with kim today.

ran/walk 2.4km today
sprint 400m
WALK 400m

FUN FUN FUN!

anyways i think with the food i've eaten after running, i've recovered the weight lost from running.


OHHH I BOUGHT TIM SUM N SUSHI HOME!!!
=)

SUSHI!! ugh wheatgrass.

today is mark out day.

i happily bought this bottle of wheat grass from this herbal shop. n i'll say I'LL NEVER EVER DRINK ANYWAYS FRESH WHEAT GRASS EVER AGAIN. its taste SO DIFFERENT from the grass power drink. try it n u'll puke. it taste SUPER grassy. DAMN SICK. n i actually manage to finish it.

i force myself to finish 1/2 the bottle b4 i can eat my dinner. YES SUSHI!!!! WHEEEEEEE!!!

today bro said something stupid.

came home from lunch.

(opens the fridge door n sees this sushi in the fridge.)

lin: how cum got sushi?

bro: i bought last night.

(bro's sushi is from carrefour)

(my sushi is from marketplace)

bro: u crazy ar buy sushi from an ang mo place.

lin: haha cannot ar U ALSO BUY UR SUSHI FROM AN ANG MO PLACE WAT.=)

bought tea eggs n tapocia too. i miss my pri sch lao shi's tea eggs its REALLY NICE! remember the last time i had lao shi's tea eggs was during out p6 holiday lessons. its really really nice!

slack it.

its been long since i've post so i shall post a long one today=)

just finish listening to lord of the dance n yes it reminded me of mhmb.
so i'm currently blasting some christian, band, other kinds of music in my air con-ed room with 102 dalmantions on disney.
talking abt dalmations. u noe i used to love them yeah caz of the show. yeapp n i wanted to own them till one day i saw this dalmation across my cousin's house. n u noe dalmations aint tat good looking as the tv shows.

i went running yesterday 6 rounds of CCA branch. i suspect tat CCAB's track is 500m per round caz i ran 6 rounds in 17:20 mins. SO LONG LAHH. i've never ran for 17mins, without stoping, for a 2.4km run. NEVER. i mean HOW CAN?? my normal timing is 13-14 plus? n tat includes me walking.

running is fun! but i'm having muscle aches now. HAH. i might run again tml.=)

i'm craving for sushi since the day i went with daph to buy her sushi n ended up buying some home. YES SUSHI!!! will buy some tml! anyways i was thinking wat will it b like to have some sake. HMMMM SOMEDAY!=)


oh ya there's no lync today. i practically i wasted my time at home on this couch.



with the tv! watched my last 2 ep of kurosagi. its a OK show lah. ending was kinda weird. expected the ending to b better.

then i watched my last 4 ep of hyd2.

while watching i was tempeted to go out n buy some SUSHI but had some pocky.

was tempeted to have some nutella too. really tempeting but i resisted.



oh ya my maid brought me dinner. u noe the jap rice with the meat on a stick? yeah really nice. talking abt my maid, she's leaving next week. so sad. she's nice but hmm i dun really like her caz she's kinda lazy n foreva talking on her phone. n yeahh been wanting to blog this down many days ago. i have a new maid in my house now. she came last wednesday. 24 years old if i'm not wrong. brithday coming this mth. mayb i'll get her a small cake or something yeah u noe leaving ur family to work in a foregin country is really sading....



WELL I TOT I REALLY WASTED MY TIME TODAY. so weird not to have lync on saturadays.

anyways i'm gonna start reading godfather tml finish it n get some books from the library. i think getting books from the library will b good caz there's a date line. n so i wont take my own sweet time to read. =)


i'll stop here n mayb pick up my guit.

first love

the guitar tat does wonder.

u noe its so wonderful when u juz tap on ur guit when u pass it, on the way to my bed to sleep n then u juz pick it up n play. even when the room's light is not on.

love u darling.

=)

where's that first love for my Lord?

a fool FOR CHRIST =)

i realised my post r getting shorter nowadays. will post a long one next time.

anyways had sch extra lessons for the last 2 days.

having worship retreat tml.

a fool for Christ. =)

ms JAPAN

watched the last 45mins of miss universe live today.
mum ask me to guess who will win among the top 5.
my 1st choice was JAPAN.


indeed i have good judgement.
*winks*
;)


JIM'S DAD BOUGHT HIM SHAMPOOs. for his hair obviously.
now i wonder how much hair does jim have.

stupid chinese.

chinese sucks.

i dun wish to take it ever. again.

I am a Monkhillian

thanks for those who wished me for chinese!


mr wong: as long as you cant get A1, means there is something else to study still.

BACK TO STUDY!

WHERE????

i'm kind troubled.

1st

JC OR POLY?

2nd

if poly i would want to go in thru DSA band BUT i dun want to join band in poly.
3rd

parents supports me in going anywhere but dun tell me which is the better place to go.
4th

chinese Os on monday but aint tat nervous caz those 3 things are in the way.

rghh anyways i'll try to leave those aside first will wait for Daddy God to give me the ultimate answer n seek for more advices between poly or JC. =)

so FIRST i'll type some stuff with poly n JC

i wanted to go JC last time till i saw the course i want in poly. tat change me total concept of going JC. so then i wanted to go poly till i was told going JC then to uni will b better for the course i want. poly to jc also can but hard u see. but if i go into poly i'll strive hard to do my best after all its wat i want, my interest.

SO JC OR POLY
any advice?

OK i an air con fixed already its 2nd hand since i'm moving out of here by the end of the year.

the future singapore? so i was thinking if mhss was still around this paper will change to 6 schs after all mhss was using the tablet-PC system thing=) then the report also said that one of those sch canberra pri sch, has TOUCH-SCREENS WHITEBOARD. who cool is tat lah! n tat sch spent $200,000 on tablet-PC, touch screen whiteboard n broadband.

crazy but damn COOL.

searching

searching...

i think i need to do something to my "ughh who cares lah" attitude.

yes n stop being complacent.

stupid aircon

i got wake up from sleep temper.
its like when i wake up for 5 mins dun try talking to me or i'll show my temper.
attitude u call it.


anyways room air con really broke down. its been for 3 days already. ARGH. i tot sleeping in mum's room will b good till i really couldnt sleep last night. n i tot a new air con will come today but for i dunno wat reason it didnt. somemore i purposely take my time to get home, tag with jim to do his phone, getting all excited, thinking tat i can enjoy the new aircon but NOOOO its not installed.

n i need the aircon to STUDY chinese. i actually plan to do compo EVERYDAY but caz i cant do compo with the fan blowing my papers away so i haven been doing compo for 2 days.
ughh old or new air con i dun care juz get a working aircon n stop dragging.

n it seems so awkward having the door widely open, for ventilation, when i feel like playing my guit n yes QT of caz it seems likes there are eyes on u.


anyways juz hope the aircon works tml n get me chionging with CHINESE.
juz 6 more days. i dun want to retake it.

ughhh

i think my air con broke down.
ughhhh.

beyond a pick

4½ production. [beyond a pick]

hint lies within=)

only jim n weijun noes=)

define VERY

b4 i start rewinding to 2 days ago i shall blog abit on exams since i dun feel lousy anymore.

passed Amaths Emaths n chinese.

yeah i failed english

my science was the worst

i tot i would pass science lah. caz for physics , ms low kept saying i did VERY well for my section C n i tot it can pull my bio up since i fail it by 2marks.

ok

**VERY good= 15 and above out of 20 marks**

so ms chang showed the whole class marks on the screen n i saw 21.5/50 so i'm like wat the hack lah? did i do my mcq n section B THAT bad?

got back the paper turns to section C

10/20

my first thoughts

WHAT THE HACK 10/20?? VERY GOOD???

so i went to tell ms low 10/20 WHERE GOT GOOD!

then she told me tat very few ppl pass section C so passing it is already very good.

-.- its not good for me.

ok shall end all the blogging of my sucky results.

REWIND TO WEDNESDAY.

i cut hair. yes again. waited REALLY long.

did some Amaths too haha yes hardworking lah.

suck up all my jelly n pearls in my bubble tea.

flip thru a jap magazine book.

went n take the hair colour range book n stared at my hair colour to be in 6mths time for 3-5 mins.

realised tat i have my godfather in my bag took it out read abt 4 pages n finally the person came to cut my hair.

i call her the wash hair girl caz yeah she always wash my hair. well this time she cut it too n i like it.=)

then she said "wah u wait untill ur drink finish already."

good u noe that.

yesterday.

had class photo taking. =)

slept ALOT yesterday. i seems like i was on sleeping pills. really. i slept ALOT.

ok i shall end with 2 photos.

ME TESSA JANEL.

last year's christmas present LOVE IT. will b wearing it from now on if can to sch too.

mid year results,

screwed.

i think i should stop being over complacent n yearn for more.

i'm sad.

SABRINA!
i failed geog.
badly.
i'm sad.
i tot i would at least pass.
=(

YAY

i'm super proud of myself caz i manage to do a chinese paper 1 in 1hr 30mins n usually i'll spend my whole 2hrs doing paper 1. then thing is tat i actually did the compo! =) wheee. will give lao shi to mark tml!=)


for a reason.

flowers

i failed bio.
i tot i would pass.
thou its only by 2 marks,
i'm sad.
caz i've never fail my bio exam b4.
=(

i hope physics will b good.
cant bare to much hope over all my results anymore.

n something's not right with my walk with God.
something's missing
my heart feels empty

He spoke to me juz now n He said:
"live a plain life, and with me, i will bloom it"
mayb i'm yearning too much over my surrounding.
people? studies?

may i shut all doors but open one for You.

indescrible.

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky
And you know them by name
You are amazing, God

All powerful, untamable
Awestruck, we fall to our knees
As we humbly proclaim:
"You are amazing, God"

Incomparable, unchangable
You know the depths of my heart
And you love me the same
You are amazing, God

fool. no more.

i'm not a fool anymore.

ANYWAYS mother's day is over.
treat mum to swensens for lunch.
n had family dinner at i dunno wat the place is called.

n i juz realised tat bro downloaded 200 pounds! =)
i think i'll b watching it now thou its 1238 but who cares.=)\

seeing doc tml. i hope everything's alright.
anyways thanks to all of ur for ur concern!
especially DENISE!=)

GUIT GUIT!

7mins to mother's day!=)
shall go to parent's room n disturb mum later.=)


anyways i touched my guitar today. yes i haven been guitaring for 3 to 4 weeks? caz i was busy with exams. yupp n i played it for 2hrs=) finger pain.
oh i tired goodbye days also since weijun[ong] said its easy. ok lahh but as u noe pinky suffers when bar-ing. WELL I WILL PRACTICE=) practicing should help=)

oh took some video of 'after lync' today. =)
may youtube it tml.


tats all folks!
shall get really to jump into parent's room!

"GOODBYE DAYS"

A DARN NICE SONG!
introduced by weijun [ong]
WEIJUN!!! OH MAN HAHAHA I THINK SHE'S REALLY CUTE NOW!! I SPEND MY NIGHT WATCHING THE "Taiyou no Uta" MOVIE PLUS DEALING WITH A LAPTOP TAT KEEP POOFFING OFF. BUT STILL DARN NICE LAHH.
I LIKE THE SONG!!!
"GOODBYE DAYS"

=)
`yui

POOF me off

i think this laptop is overworked.
mayb caz of sis who use it from 12 to 7pm
n me from 7pm till 2am plus
n if sis is still awake she will use it till she sleeps.

SO now it get overheated n POOFF the laptop blackouts.

ROAR. irritating u noe. especially when i'm in the mood of youtubing n after waiting for a super long time for the video to load POOOFFF goes the labtop.

RRAHHH.

anyways i MIGHT quee up of donuts on sunday after church.=)
oh n exam is officially over.
still there's chinese O level coming up in 16 days time. will chiong for chinese from monday.=)

trust?

SEXYDRAGON: I DID NOT STUDY FOR CME.


haha yes had my cme EXAM today. really retarded to the extend tat the teacher didnt allow us to have our bag/hp with us even when we r doing a mcq computered cme exam.
so i started saying. "i'm sure we're gonna copy for a cme exam."
n jim went "we have moral values"

after all we ARE taking a civics n MORAL education exam.

n poor weijun needs to get some marks cut off from his 71/80 for being 45mins late.

truthfully lah this sch dont trust their students at all? it seems like those singapore sch show like i not stupid where the teachers can be tat suspicious over u.

it was tat bad when we had our english paper 2 for mid years n the HOD of english, invigilatng my class, had to go the extend of making us pull out our pockets like baggers to prove tat we dun have our handphone with us.

unlike mhss where teachers n students have mutual trust. mhss, with the last year of 250 ppl n 30 plus teachers, it was like the biggest family u eva had. it seems like u seen everyone from the sch n it will b weird if u haven seen this person before.

even thou there's theft n all but it will never b worst than bhss when i can lose 5 over pen/pencils with in my 5mths of sch. in mhss u can just leave ur stationary in the teacher's homeroom n few days later its still there.
the difference is u'r leaving ur stuff in a teacher's homeroom which many classes goes there for lesson.
but when ur class has ur own classroom things gets missing.


OH WELLS. anyways tat time i did an experiment by leaving 1week old pen, which i dropped n spoil it, on my desk n TADA it went missing the next day.


anyways i shall end now.
oh n i got 68/80 for cme exam. =)



photoshopped today.

"hao gong ming"

i had the weirdest dinner at home today.
happily went to the kitchen to see wat maid has cook.
stund there for awhile n started wondering wat kind of combination is this.
1) plain porridge
2) some minced pork with something i think its black beans (always with plain porridge)
3) steam egg with minced pork. (usually with plain porridge i'll have scramble egg with some crunchy salty thing)
4) nuggets.


steam egg is still ok lah but nuggets with porridge?? wat a great combi lah.


anyways my maid is getting slackier by the days. she's foreva on the phone. well her hp. even when she cleans the bathroom she's talking thru the earpiece. i wonder if its her friends who is the rich one to call her or she's rich enough to call them. free incoming call u see. 1 have to pay.


OH WELLS. AMATHS TML!! YAY.
yay for Amaths and also caz its the last paper.
erm there's still CME on thurs n chinese listening on friday.
yes CME EXAM. WHO IN THE WORLD TAKES CME EXAM LAHH.
"how to have family bonding??"
RIGHHT.................
seriously this sch acts like a primary sch or worst, even pri sch doesnt have "HAO GONG MING" exam lah.
yeah man i'm loyal to my country n i'm sure i need to b tested.

mayb i shall go for CME EXAM then i'll go see wat stupid thing they give. anyways it will b held in the com lab.

BUTT PAIN.

something i went thru in my bag today.
found a bookmark in my bag. well its b there for a super long time already but i juz couldnt b bothered to look at it. so i pick it up again. yupp its the 9am service bookmark.

Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for i am with you; i will strengthen you, i will help you, i will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

how beautiful is it when God gives u this few words of encouragement over my eyes especially when its during my exam period. yes indeed i was in a moment of fear yes i was thinking ALOT haha only jim noes how far i've thought yeah jim?. but with God's grace, i am still able to concentrate on exams n being the happy me even when i was in fear. but anyways after talking to a few ppl like mum, jim n DENISE i felt so much better. n also thanks to uncle hali's semon on sat.

my God is cool!=)
thank you DADDY GOD!


anyways my butt hurts. caz i'm sitting on the floor using the labtop. caz my table is filled with geog stuff. yes geog tml. sian.

u noe every year during mid year, i'll study geog a day b4 exam n i'll always realised tat i threw all my notes away. but somehow i'll manage to find some notes in the house n tada tat will come out for exams. yes God's grace. now i'm left with a textbook n 5 years series for tml's exam.

decided to take a break caz my eyes are tired. dunno y also. mayb its the bright light. yes i hate lamp light but my room light a pretty screwed sometimes the brighter light is on sometimes it die die also dun want to on so another dimer light will take its place. too dark, cant see ons lamp light which is too bright.
or mayb its the eye problem tats making my tired. oh wells. i'll b studying again later. taking a break.

2 more papers to go=)

oh great thanks to howard for finding this chinese song for me. LOVE IT. will put it on my blog soon when i'm free=) seriously i prefer chinese to english songs. the english songs i listen to my majority christian songs.=)
n plus when i'm bored i'll watch chinese mtv. so i get updated really fast with chinese music.
oh n cai min you's "wo ke yi" woah love it too. =)


ok tats all i'll go have some blog's update for 15mins then i'll study.=)

NAVE NAVE NAVE!

this is my 3rd time blogging. i think stupid labtop is overheated n it keep blacking out. anyways i've only blog abt 3 or 4 lines so yeah i'm cool.

lync in the nave today. hymns for worship, kneeling for intercesson (thou i didnt kneel), comfy chairs n the super cool, peaceful, holy environment. the only problem was the place was super hot even with aircon on but with super low fan. but towards the last 10 mins it finally got a little cooler.

had some 'know ur church' lesson. b4 sermon.
realised pretty ALOT of stuff.

y is the cross on the church's logo like tat.

caz saint andrew was curcified on at slianted cross.






cool huh. NEVER knew tat.


anyways after lync i went to see jinfong's boxing match. not very interested in boxing but juz to support him. well it loss. tot he could do better but still GREAT JOB JINFONG. hmm dun think he reads my blog lah.

went parklane to pool. rather watch ppl pool. i didnt want to show how lousy pool-er i am with unknown ppl around.

bought tao hui, yu tiao home from family.

too lazy to blog gd nite.

a SLOW video of the nave.=)
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do i fear?

do i fear?

some verse tat i went thru many many years ago n i suddenly came into my mind.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

PA JIAO!

watching the chl U "ge dou chang" show. YES because cai min you is there. hahah he rocks lah. spoted him the moment he release his album n chinese mtv keep playing his song so yeah loves the way he sings n please lah he's only 19 now. how talented can ppl get these days lah. ahem. my future children =)
my dream "jamming room in my house" yes i also do want a musical boyfriend to husband.

anyways,
i shall talk abt exams first.
could no Emaths n SS. BUT NO TIME LAH!
was on my last question for maths tat cost abt 10 plus marks=( i think i'll do the last question first next time.
n 1 more question for ss

i think i wrote alot of well mayb my whole class wrote alot caz we all left abt 1 or 2 questions not done. then i see this girl beside me slacking. dunno if she dunno how to do or didnt rite as much as we did. i didnt even have a min to slack. no time to stop n think properly juz rite wateva tat comes into my brain. yeah

n the stupid thing is the sch hall with more than 250 ppl inside has 1 small clock at the front left conner hall n a little bigger size clock on the right front conner wall. u tell me how to see when u'r sitting 4th table from the back?

not time planning lah
n not as if my eyes very sharp or the clock very big lah.
plus i'm pa jiao now.

pictures will show u how pa jiao i am now.
i look like i got bashed up
nevermind. still pretty lah. =)

k as u can see i'm currently from EYE INFECTION. yes eye infection. n there's this thing in my eye lids growing for abt 3 weeks already n yes i can feel it when i touch the eyelids. anyways i'm on medication now. seeing doc in 10 days time. then he'll decide.
1) continue on medicine.
2) surgery to cut the thing off.


sounds serious huh. but b4 i saw him somehow i already expected for the worst. but still I DUN WANT TO GO SURGERY TAT FAR LAH. pray for me k.

THE BILL, EYEDROP, ANITBOTIC N ANIT-INFLAMMATORY

*brings the bill closer....

one hundred and two ONLY. thanks doc. u never fail to give me expensive service. but yeah he's a good doctor lah.

TATA FOR NOW.=)

pinky pain.

had pinky pain since 2 weeks ago.
n i finally found out y when i was studying for ss.

left pinky VS right pinky

can see the diff??

BOOO CHINESE!

i think i need to cut my hair soon.

yes again.

chinese n physics today. wah chinese sucked lahh my compo was a piece of shit but letter wasnt too bad. still my compo sucked good ideas juz cant come out of my brain.
n physics was GOOD=) remembered all the formulars=) but well its like i know how to do but i'm not confident if tats the answer. but yeah wateva its over.

TML.
Emaths p2 i hope i'll do well n do b over confident.
SS haha let me rite well. n remember stuff =)

YAY

bie lia wu yang!

i juz finish studying n its 1:12am now.
i plan to get onto the bed by 1am but failed.

anyways chinese compo n physics tml or maybe later!
i hope i'll do well for chinese compo n physics too!

will do a last reacalling of physics formulars during the break b4 phytml! =)


jui chi ge bi, yu yan hou xun

chen hui

2006nian5yue2rei

world or God

it get really irritating when u cant go to msn caz ur fasting msn and pick someone out of ur list n start blurting everything out.

temptation: clicking on the sign in button.

but i wont so i'm blogging here.

this is wat tat has happen

person always bully me.
sec 3 he made me cry caz he made me lose to my temper causing me to slap his face with a book.
sec 3 i found out he was backstabbing me.
sec 4 he was with his proud irritating self calling me stupid n putting himself high up there. wanted to slap him again but we were in a sec 5 class so i didnt want to lose it there. -cried-

but i was too softhearted to forgive n forget.

sec 5, today, i juz wanted to play with the ball n he didnt want to lend me so he started kicking n pushing me really hard. but its different this time i've grown to think.

after awhile i decided to sit down n relax.
why?
1) there were ppl from 5N2 n 1 in the class. n i dun want to get any further attention especially from ppl not from my own class.
2) he's so much stronger than me. his kick was really hard n his one push made me fall 3 steps back. so wats the point when i noe i'm weaker than him. if i carry on i'll get injured somehow. n yeah i think he bruised my leg it suddenly hurt when i touch certain parts.
3) win the world or win myself? my temper was rising so it was to control or lose it. i decided to win myself n control it.


i noe i've won for being able to surpress my temper.
but yet i felt like i shouldnt have let tat bastard off.
"WHAT KIND OF A GUY IS HE WHO HITS A GIRL"

i've always hate it when ppl tries to bully me
so ever since p2 nobody dares to bully me except NICHOLAS SIEW.
everytime i get bullied by him i'll start to think if my change was good.
from a hot tempered girl to a happy go lucky girl.
it has come to the point tat i cant throw temper anymore.
tat fierce, nobody can take advantage of me girl is gone. it feels like i cant protect myself anymore.

world or God?
i want God.

i miss temper but is cheerful really better?

light of hope

light of hope was ok but the bad thing was of all the house i visited only one didnt speak cantonese. SO YES I COULDNT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING. n tat only one was a malay couple ENGLISH yupp but we didnt stay long lahh i was to happy to finally have a house where i can understand wat they are talking abt n then we left in less than 15mins. =(

n this was the only thing i said today during visiting.
"uncle take a seat" yes to the malay uncle.
oh n all the "bye bye" to the i dun understand wat they are talking folks.


well it sort of make me feel pretty useless lahh i seriously didnt understand at all lahh ok mayb a little bit but 90% dun understand them. if they spoke chinese yes i will understand. but whenever one speaks chinese my group cantonese speaker leads them back to cantonese. n i'm with aunty joyce n that cantonese guy called henry. aj could understand here n there. n i couldnt. =(


I THINK I NEED TO PICK UP CANTONESE OR MORE DIALECTS.


hokkian, cantonese, hailanese may i learn them from dad n mum.

afew snaps

arh english paper.. hmm its ok for me lah caz i already expect it to b hard. n u noe when u expect things to b hard right, for it to b hard it gotta b even harder. hmm if u understand wat i mean.


didnt study today.juz didnt feel like it. will study tml=) PHYSICS!!! i think its my weakest sub now.

oh there's light of hope tml. going to eat my YU TIAO! and see the CUTE SENIOR CITIZENS at red hill=) OHOH n there's geog lessons from dara tml!=) see i dun sleep in geog class for nothing.=)
gotta b there at 9am. ah yawnnn......

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2092836126
pictures of face2face vol 1 concert=)

courtesy of sexy dragon

Emaths. with a few ppl escaping from class to do errr maths.

Godfather.snapped for reading. told u i need to improve my english.thanks jinfong

be careful.

i think bhss ppl r pretty freaky at times?

1) there's ppl who comes to u, talks to u like they noe u very well n yes its ur FIRST time seeing them.
2) then there's ppl who sees a guy n a girl walking or sitting together for a few times/hours n starts with their "ur r stead ar?" wats with the word stead anyways.
3) juniors who DUN RESPECT THEIR SENIORS.
4) finally the worst of all backstabbers.


EXAMPLE 1 & 2.
studying with ben tan n jim on monday after sch. then ben tan's friend started playing with my elephant pencil box when i DUN EVEN NOE HER. when we were leaving ben tan friends ended with "send ur stead home hor" yes refering to me. couldnt b bother with these childish things.

EXAMPLE 3 & 4.
so a mth ago or so my true ah lian (beeting) got diao-ed by a sec 2 girl so ah lian diaos back at punny sec 2 girl. punny not happy. my ah lian also not happy. few days later my ah lian meets punny with a sec 4 girl. punny with sec4 girl finds fault with my ah lian. [ahem. said already wat TRUE ah lian. so of caz not scared lah] scolds punny n sec 4 girl back.
today sec 4 girl suddenly comes n find my ah lian n starts talking to her like she noes her well. backstabs punny saying i dun like her n blablabla [haven asked of full details yet]. my ah lian couldnt b bother but sec 4 girl continues to talk like she noe her well. they stop talking sec 4 girl continues to sit beside her, ah lian ignores her.
after sch linette goes home by the back gate n sees sec 4 girl hanging out with punny.

hmmm tat a real good example of a backstabber.=)
and a sec 2 girl who doesnt have the respect their seniors.

oh yes one more
5) ppl who wants to call ppl down (gang) over small reasons.

i think its really stupid when one calls ppl down. it shows tat they r weak, unable to settle things by themself. n wat they want is power.
ppl who joins gang= insecure ppl.
"got gang means got backup wat i kanna anything, i got my gang to 'gan' them back ar."
hate it when ppl bullies one with a "bigger group"
STRONG to them
weak to me.

its my 4th mth in this sch with so many weird ppl n i guess i'm going to discover more. n do wat i love most. analyse more human charcters. =)


OK ENGLISH EXAM TML ahh yes my english n getting suckier. n i really juz hope i can juz pass it.
n the sch doesnt want to arange table in the hall tml caz there's assmebly in the hall on mon. how lazy can the sch get lah. i'm sure they have more wokers than mhss but usually i only see the cleaners picking up empty bottles/cans or hanging around the toiliet.
so eng exam in class.
but i kinda like having exam in the hall. =)

200 pounds!!

edited.

went to watch 200 pounds beauty today. yeah i noe, exam's coming BUT THE SHOW IS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD. n i have no regrets 'wasting' some study time juz to watch tat show. seriously its REALLY GOOD MUST WATCH!!
the storyline is good n all oh n the song is really nice too. the actress is really really cute! well i think she looks abit like the shu qi and the taiwanise vivian hsu.


i dun mind watching it again=)
after exams!=)
oh n spiderman 3 too!=)



Trailer its in korean so dun bother understand it juz watch n find out wat they are talking when u WATCH IT.=) ohohh i like the song "maria"



Beautiful Girl



hmm i've realised tat i've been editing my post for the last 2 days. okays. juz wanted to add some stuff.
guess wat? u'r curently reading the 5th hundred post in the history of www.bruffbone.blogspot.com yes its been my 3rd year updating this blog constantly. n yes i've been thru SO many stuff in my life good memories to bad memories with God's love. how much i have grown from a not fluent blog n now something short n simple with picutres oh n really bad SINGLISH to better english. hmm yeah i never bother typing in good english caz i blog caz i want to say wat i'm feeling so chim words? nah. short n simple.=)

have i become mature? i think i did with so many things tat happened thru the years i have learnt alot of stuff. n now when i make decisions i really think into it before i act. but if rubbish comes out from my mouth then its a different thing lah.=)

i've found some of my trademark words too.:

"my journey YOUR way"-long time ago
the quote i'll never forget, yes my journey in earth but i want to follow God's special journey. =)

"Camptodactyly Shall Stay That Way" -2 years ago
"FourandAhalf" - last year
they are related lah. camptodactyly-halfed. is it. =)

my trademark.


with lots of love to all of u guys who've been reading my blog,
fourandahalf.

loving chinese (edited)

after tuition i went to sleep. tats abt 5 n guess wat i woke up at 920pm.
woke up caz i really needed to pee n i was thinking ahh mum will wake me up soon. then i start to wonder "ehh y am i on this (sister's) side of the bed?" then i realised its actually at night no morning. suppose to wake up at 9 n darn i missed my 9pm show. so i have to watch the 2am one which will end at 245am.
well, since i happily slept for 4hrs i guess i wont b able to sleep so early lah.


ANYWAYS i need to poo now.
then study.


edited.

while i was pooing i remembered i want to blog something.
HAH I PASS MY CHINESE TEST WITH A 50% HAHAHAHA n guess wat i didnt do 3 out of 5 compre questions lahh!! haha and there's like on,y 4 passes 1 with 65% n the rest with 50% hahah i was SUPER shock when lao shi called my name second lahh. caz with 3 compre questions not done i'm prepared to fail lah.
hahah tat gave me comfidence in chinese again
HAH=)

productive study

today was good.=)

stayed back in sch to study with ben tan n jim till 5pm today. pretty productive. =)

juz cant go home to study lahh.. once i'm home i'll feel like sleeping unless its at night, so y waste the afternoon by sleeping? now i can study both in the afternoon n at night. n of caz i'll sleep when i reach home till 9pm? then starts to study again at 1030pm=)

FUN!

btw sis and i are in cold war

she's pretty childish lahh caz u noe she has 3 pillows n like i use one of them caz its pretty flat. so yesterday she took the pillow n didnt "put it on my side" usually she'll use my fat pillow, which i dun use, when she's in the living room watching tv. yeah but it doesnt bother me lah caz i can even sleep without using pillows.=)

if i decide to b mean i can always do one thing tat will "kill" her. take doggy (snoopy) away from her. its mine anyways n she's super attach to it.
i really wonder if she's going 21 this year.

the one on the right is doggy. left is doppy. =) both mine. n i have many many more. smaller n bigger ones.

hey look at those 2 weirdly grown pimples on my neck there. it looks like i got a vampire bite or something.

back to ME=)

jeremiah 29:21
For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, says the LORD, plans for your welfare, not for woe! plans to give you a future full of hope.

okays so it got a little drama after i blogged finish. n sis became even more irritating. so irritating u noe!
well in the end i got the room to myself for tat night.
it was DAMN AWESOME LAH.


anyways after the drama series i decided to cool down before i get started with my midnight studies. decided to play my guitar. yes as i have said b4 guitar was a gift from God to help me take away my problems in His presence.

recovered in half an hours time. did some QT too.
anyways the day before my QT was on trusting in God tat everything tat is done, He has plans for it. i dunno wat His plan was for me but surely its better than being tat me who ALWAYS keeps things inside of me till i'm feeling juz too heavy.


okays SO I WANTED TO BLOG SOME STUFF YESTERDAY WITH PICTURES.
YES encounter fest!

lazy to blog so i'll juz upload the pictures=)

FACE 2 FACE vol 1! i tot both music n sermon was GREAT.

face 2 face tee shirt. really nice shirt lahh. suppose to b an ushering shirt but hah i didnt usher.=)

back of the shirt n song lyrics! LYnC and BRIDGES!!!!

OH YES MY BLOG SONG! although the loading of it can get pretty irritating but ITS REALLY REALLY NICE. n the lyrics!!

by faith i WILL hold on

GIVE ME A PERSONAL ROOM.

its SUCKS when u'r on at 90% mood to b on a midnight study for a day caz sister, who shares the same room with u aint coming home caz she have gone for a chalet which is like super rare.
SO u decide to stay in church for the MARVALOUS encounter feasr which ends at 8pm, eats dinner till 9 plus n reaches home at 1015.
AND since sis wont b home, u decided to waste ur time on the com, change ur blog song, find the lyrics, loving the song SO much.
THEN close to 12 the house door opens then ur room door opens with a irritating voice "I'M BACK!! I BROUGHT FOOD FOR U!!"
then ur midnight studying mood, with God's music being LOUD, with an EMPTY room, without ppl distracting u at MIDNIGHT, DROPS TO ZERO PERCENT.
even food cant make any happier.
then u start asking "y are u home?? i told u not to come home wat"
then she starts to say "i stay here wat y cant i b home"


n ur mood of midnight studying drops to NEGATIVE TEN PERCENT.
so u go to ur mum's room n complains to her.
looks away n cries.
n mum still happily ask u "how to spell the short form of tomorrow? is its tml?"
n u cry without her even noticing when u'r juz abt two arm length away from her, plus using ur shirt sleves to wipe ur tears off.
stays there for abt 5mins without being noticed for crying then leaves the room being disappointed.
then ur mood of studying now drops to NEGATIVE FIFTY PERCENT.


AND NOW YOU WONT BE ABLE TO HAVE FUN MIDNIGHT STUDYING CAUSE ITS 1:11AM AND SIS WILL BE BACK IN THE ROOM IN ABOUT AN HOUR TIME.



TODAY'S MOOD
not to good from being a speech day audience,
goes home to sleep wakes up at 2 happily going to church.
mood goes up when church starts,
mood gets to the max during encounter feast.
mood gets higher when u starts thinking of midnight study
then mood drops to the lowest point it can b when sis gives a "surprise" home coming.


i dun want to have results with a mindset like last time "juz pass the subjects can already" i want a to do well for exam i want to think of intresting ways to keep me motivated to study like midnite studying without sis n then sis WILL ALWAYS BREAK THEM.


CANT THEY EVER UNDERSTAND I NEED N I WANT TO STUDY?!?!?!?!?!?!

no caz parents dun mind their children not studying so siblings never noe wat its like wanting to study n do really well.

for goodness sake its my O level year.
before i give up
GIVE ME A PERSONAL ROOM!

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

before i start getting distracted by the com again, like today, i'll quit msn till exam ends. yes i want to study. yay. suddenly i think studying is fun. well actually wheneva i really start to study, it will b fun=)


ok there's this speech day thing tml. sian lah i really dun want to go as audience. but yeah i'm going. stupid sch juz love to force us to do stupid things.


anyways thinking of it i've never, never recieve any prizes, other than for macritchie, since pri sch. hahah yeah oh wells. dun really bother. as long as i win myself, i'm happy.=)


let me do some mid year targeting.
english- c5
chinese-b4 (WILL b working hard on it soon)
Amaths- B3
E.maths- A1
science- b4
humanities- c5

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i'll take it slowly step by step.
but i'll study hard.
yay!=)


meanwhile i'll play right now till i sleep. do all the thing i can do b4 i start to studying.


STUDYING STARTS TML. =)

RELAXED.

i always wondered y do they always have to make the bottom of cone icecreams b filled with chocolate. cant cant it b white kind of chocolate?? there was this one person who once told me tat was the best part of cone ice-cream. i think its the worst. ok juz bcaz i dun like eat chocolates. =)


i'm playing buggle call for speech day. didnt want to play at first caz i really didnt want to play n plus i didnt want to go to sch on a sat juz to play it. oh wells since xueling is playing snare drum n justin dun want to play i'll play lah. to me it seems so empty without a bugle call in a parade.


my eyes are pretty sore so i'm with specty again=)
had 2.4 run today. i almost died lahh plus i was sick. juz wanted to run n get over with it n u noe whenever i run no matter how bad i feel i wont stop caz i'll psycho myself with the "1 more round than i stop. 1 round later i'll say still got 2 more rounds aiya juz run lah" felt super dizzy after running.


well i'm alright now.=)


i'm gonna do my QT now. haven been doing for DAYS caz my brain isnt working properly couldnt get stuff into my head. n after QT i'm gonna do Amaths=)


hold me in Your arms.

DONUTS!

didnt go to sch. pretty sick n have been sleeping ALOT today.


anyways godma bought dunkin donuts for me=) but i think the one at raffles city is better even thou i'm there every week i wont b bother buying it again the quee is far tooooo long lahh.

this sliver band.

the band got a sliver. not too bad yeah?


i tot i played quite badly. n the suckest of all was having blaze in between me n gui yuan so i cant hear him for a certian part n it was a total rubbish. but it sounded ok lah. when i played i tot it sucked like shit man. but after hearing the recording sam did well it wasnt as bad as i tot.

predicted a sliver n yeah the band got it.


but well this syf to me was like "oh ok syf. go in perform play it well. end." the suckest thing was the moment i entered the hall i started sneezing. n u noe when i sneeze the mood is not really there. so oh wells.


i'm starting to get sicker. expected it already. down with a flu now. i dunno how in the world am i going to do my 2.4 run on wed. hope i can push back my sickness again. have been preventing a sore throat since friday. juz wed.... caz when i start to get sick, it takes abt 1 to 2 weeks b4 i recover.


sian.

a pure heart.

u noe the guy whom i post on 2 post away? he passed away yesterday's afternoon.
anyways after his baptisim, b4 he died,
he told his son this "after i recover, lets go church together."

oh his son used to go to cityteens if u guys remember him he's called james the boy who have a very very nice angmo-chinese mix.


anyways band's syf tml.
thou i'm not committed to the band i'll still play my very best lahh.
afterall its my last performance with my cornet.
n i've always love performing for band.
unless mhmb comes back some how, i'll b performing again.
still i'll perform with a music heart n enjoy this last performance.

not like friday the thirteen.

band uniform. sucks.

ok shalnt talk abt band.

anyways i didnt go to sch yesterday caz i was far to tired. n mum allowed caz she knew if i go to sch i'll b sleeping in class. no important lesson yesterday so yupp she allowed me to skip sch. then i juz remembered tat there's ss test yesterday. oh wells...

i was talking to my obs friend juz now. yes like after 2 years. pretty good chat. anyways i tried to find my obs group photo but cant find it mayb someday i'll find it n upload it.=) then i realised tat he used to b me "kor". thinking of it the "kor" word makes my hair stand.

anyways i had english oral. i tot it went well. the sucky thing was tat i added words into my reading passage. it was horible lahhh but after awhile i was alright already. picture n coversations was kind impromptu as in i didnt really say wat i plan to say. juz my words leads me to where i should go. pretty cool. i tot i talked too much tat the teacher cut me off when i felt like i want to talk more. =) pretty cool juz tat my reading sucked.

OK so today was even cooler. i reached home abt 7 plus bathed finish by 730 n then i heard this "BOOM BOOM BOOM" sounds tot it was the road of something it was pretty long lah so i decided to go n take a look n guess wat! I WAS FIREWORKS FROM UNIVERSITY ROAD!!! i guess this rich university road person smuggled fireworks from malaysia. hahaha i wonder wat will happen if the govt. finds out. hmmm but aiya who cares! ITS SUPER NICE!!! LIKE WOAH REALLY NICE. first time i'm seeing fireworks in this bukit timah area. stupid trees always cover the fireworks on national day n new year day.

REALLY NICE! wanted to take a photo but by the time i took my cam the fireworks ended.

i wonder wats the GREAT occasion tat will make them break singapore's rules on friday the 13th.

not like friday the thirteen.

the death bed

less than a mth ago, he heard he contracted last stage of cancer.
before he was admited to hospital he told his wife,
"dont try to convert me. i want to die as a buddist."
told his wife n children on the hospital bed,
"dun talk to me abt faith"

his cancer worsen, he rejected any prayers from anyone.
till this week he accepted a prayer from pastor john lin.
and today he is in ICU n he said,
"i want to b a christian, i want to get baptised."
n right now pastor john lin is rushing his way down to the hospital to baptise him.

tats my mum's friend's husband.


indeed God does wonders.
i dunno y he suddenly want to accept christ but surely on his deathbed God did something other gods cant do.


if God can change a hard hearted man, wat more unimginable stuff can he do?

juz 5 more days.

had nafa today. n i'm pretty happy with wat i got. 47, 18, 10.7, 42, 204yupp all A yes from the first time i'm getting all A caz usually my SnR sucks. somehow i did it today. now its my 2.4km dunno y but i'm deproving.
oh well i'll go find my perserverence again.


after nafa i went for band.
well band was pretty alright today still band with mr ong sucks but when the band becomes united n hates a conductor, it gets pretty fun.
anyways leng will b back tml so i guess everything will b better again.=)


really really tired from band lah. plus my weird sleeping/studying new arrangement, i'm over exhusted. i mean i come home close to 7pm n tries to sleep around 7 to 9pm or eles 10 to 12am n starts to do homework. then caz i've slept, i wont b able to sleep so early. so i'll sleep at 2am n also caz i got tv show at 1am. but when i sleep like last night i couldnt sleep till 3am. SO the next day, i'll sleep in class.


almost back out today. yeah felt it. after i finish my sbj n waiting for the rest, i went to squart n look at the nafa score thing. n when i stand up everything was blurr couldnt see much things n i couldnt balance myself. it was really freaky lah. caz i've never felt like tat b4? like i almost couldnt control my body, everything seems so blurr, darkening.
but its good tat it went away within few seconds.
i cant imgine fainting in the middle of a place with out support.


when i'm weary, all i need is YOUR strength.
give me Your strength Lord.

stupid band.

BAND SUCKS LAH!!


for the first time with my cornet life i'm being cut off caz 'i cant play well'.
wa lau...
i mean if i really cannot play then i dun mind not playing but I CAN PLAY only tat today something went wrong with me. arrgh.
i dun see the point of cutting down players. not for a few parts but like HALF THE SONG.
it shows the judges the band cant play so u need to take the 'useless' ppl off.
now tat i dun need to play HALF THE SONG, wats the point of going syf.
think wat go syf show face only ar.
stupid mr ong.
where's mr leng?!
i had fun in band tat last few times he was there.
n tats wat i wanted!!
FUN.


told u i want to quit already.

good friday to easter sunday =)

on the bus ride home from lunch today mum told me something.
i shall put the story in another form. but tat's wat happened.

on friday night. sis n i recieve a msg from a friend.
msg: this is plex.. will be celebrating my bithday on the april 20th friday 7pm at THE ONE.. its a ktv cum pool pub.. address NO 1 neil road opposits maxwell hawker centre.. you are invited... plz inform me if u can make it..

ok so sis went to talk to dad.
sis: daddy where is neil road??
dad: the place where u can find alot of nails lor.
-.-
sis: my friend said its a ktv cum pool pub. can swim one.


HAHAHHAHHAHA OH MANNN MY SIS IS DAMN NOOB.
i'm sure u can swim in a ktv.


ok anyways haven been blogging for a long time so today's post might be long. yes its gonna b abt good friday to easter sunday. juz wanted to blog all of them together.


this year good friday n easter really did mean something to me. it was juz jesus died on the cross n resurrected on the the 3rd day. it was how he cared for others even when he was suffering. aiya dunno how to say but yeah its was something different this year.


ok so for the first time being a christian, i decided to go to the good friday THREE HOURS service. ok lahh its not too bad. i tot it was rather good. i mean sometimes u juz really to noe the meaning of Good friday n the 7 last words. yeah. so friday was good thou it was 3 hrs with 7 short sermons, 8 hymns was sang which i've only heard of 1 or 2 of them. and man i juz love the nave its so beautiful, peaceful. n yes no butt pain. the chair was really comfortable. n thou there's air con which doesnt really work but still accpetable.=)

tat night i was chating with jim till FOUR AM. super late lah n guess wat i have sch at 8am the next day. but it was a pretty fun cool chat. =)

so woke up at 730 for sch.
had Amaths to band to worship prac to lync.
i brought me guit to sch caz there worship prac starts at 11 for tat day so there will be like hours b4 lync start. but i didnt have the time to practise lah. ANYWAYS back to point. i didnt really want to bring my guit caz its so poser lahh. but i ended up bringing caz jun ask me to bring also yeah so i brought. when i left the car i saw nick siew. walked to class together. n yeah i asked him to help me carry in. yup n he was nice enough to help me. i dun really like the getting attention thing lah.

went for 1/2 hr band which suck. i think i really need more practise. but u noe i'm not really interested to play so i cant really bother.

then worship prac. the keyboard was out of tune so the guit had to b out of tune too. plus charissa high voice. i juz died lah. i was SUPER SUPER SUPER ZHAO XIA. like ive never been so zhao xia for worship prac b4. but after eating, my voice came back. i think its the keyboard thing caz after jeanette showed her proness i was back on tune. jun guit string snapped. poor jun. new strings lahh!!!! ok so she borrowed my NEW guit. yes lucky i brought my guit. n its honour to have my guit being played for lync! whee "darling tat place is meant for u in the future" =)

n yes charissa really noe how to arrow ppl. in the midde of worship prac, she suddenly ask jun to pray for worship later. then she needs to leave for confimation so she said "linette will take over me i'll try to b back at 230pm"
i almost died lah. zhao xia plus i haven lead a worship team for a year?? yes no confidence. so it was bad real bad.

ok so finally after a mth of no lync service i shared my "daddy" testimony. a really really long one lah. i think its the longest testimony i've shared.

tats my sat. really tiring lah went home right after lync n slept for 1 hr.


EASTER SUNDAY! service was pretty full. but i woke up late sheesh man. i really want to b early for serivce n b awake too. but wells serivce was good. i kinda like the organ sound. sounds so holy?? hahaha is it an organ anyways?


Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleaning flow
Now all I know Your forgiveness and embrace

inspirational....................?

band was pretty fun.
without mr ong.

anyways
while salihin is reading this,
he's inspired to do maths.
yes salihin????

i dunno y but yeah. i dun think my blog talks much abt maths?

haha.

DAO.

my yesterday's post is gone caz of my stupid internet.
ok anyways tat means its not meant to b in my blog.
watsoever.

anyways i'm starting to b dao-er n dao-er by the days.
talks less too.
well i guess i'm like tat when i'm starting to b serious over stuff lah.

lalala i need to do hw now.