HAPPY 18TH JIM!

so let's talk about the headline, JIM GOH HONG SOON.
MAN. i'm glad that i left all my "i hate smokers" thing and decided to sacrifice just for my buddy's 18th birthday, before he gets set off to the ARMY.
and i LOVE CLASS SOOO MUCH. it's awesome to see you guys again. even when there was only 10 of us there. including xueling, let make it 11! =)
but well the only bad thing was that i was being a passive smoker and i almost died okay. I didn’t know what is fresh air till I entered the cab. And I bet the driver hated me caz I stank. and my bag stank. it's being washed now.
went home about 130am by a freaking $15 cab ride.
report every unpleasant things that has happened to mum.
(this is what i call creating trust between us.)
then finally went to bed at 230am.
man, i was tired.

i'm kinda lazy to blog all the details so HEH. pictures will TALK.
Ok I’ll guide you along with the pictures.
Oh for more pictures, go to my Friendster and check them out.
And for even more photos, ask me.
I have about 250.
=)


I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Erm , after an hr of uploading, I decided not to tag the photos.

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one more time,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIM!

OKAAYYYYY.

okay. now that my blog's being exposed to more people, i would like to say again.
If you have a blog or something,
DONT LINK ME.
or at least ask me before you link me.
THEN i'll consider.

i think i must put these words somewhere in my blog.


OKAY.
i'm FREAAAKKKKKKKINGGGG TIRED.
practically cause i'm having an exhusting week.
and tomorrow's another one.
1pm climbing comp.
3pm church
dinner with xueling
8pm JIM'S 18th PARTY.

i'm still considering if i should go church tomorrow.

then sunday there's the family day dinner after 9am and youth day practise at i dunno what time.
there goes my sunday sleep.

and then the busy schdual goes on for 2 or 3 more weeks.
sigh.


lets talk about today.
that adventure learning programme thing practically sucked.
ok the high element thing that i didnt sucks.
i hate being unchallanged when i'm suppose to be challanged.
so i went climbing and competed 2 bouldering routes.
and i'm tired now.
oh i've lost weight again.
i'm losing so much weight that i feel that the weighing machine at home is probably spoilt.
maybe.

too lazy to get my cam to upload the photos taken.
so till another day!


SENTANCE OF THE DAY: I LOVE JESUS
p.s: i love Jesus too.

inside out

i think i should blog about my thoughts or i'll never have peace.

this is dedicated to E35G.

we tend to be a somebody, one who wants to be popular and not to be an outcast. but after the many weeks of thinking, i've came to a decision. I dont want to be a somebody anymore but i want to be someONE who stands for her rights, someONE who wants to get back to her justice, someONE has already looked from the inside out.

I've tried to love school but i hate it. I hate to be somebody, i hate it that i'm not linette but someone who cant be bothered with what's going on. But how much can i be like this?
it's just not me.

i hate school because they dont appreciate someone who is trying really hard.
i hate school cause they cant get over it.
i hate school cause it's full of crap.
like how i've told many ppl already.
the people sucks.
but i know that they are nice people.

and here's my main point.
at first, you guys 'degraded' her because her english sucked and she didnt want to improve. then it went on to her being fat. and then slowly things have gotten worst. You guys didnt want to be involved with her, so she's ostricised. You guys didnt want her to help you cause you dont understand want she's trying to say.
SO of cause, when help is not needed from her, y should she help or even try to help.

that day i was talking to jim, and i asked him y doesnt he like her. and then he listened out points.
-she dont contribute
-she play games during presentation
cant remember the rest.
but how can we judge others when we ourselves do, do such thing.

We know her condition and we know that she really do have a problem with language but how have we helped her. She talks to the facilitators and is termed as she's acting pityful. But have we actually take a good look at how hard she's trying to improve herself? well, her english have improved.
you guys called her out for a talk. telling her not to do this and that. but what's the point of a talk when nothing's changing at all. All you want is for her to change for you and she's trying. But you guys aint accepting it.

when she's alone, she gives credits to you all but yet you guys still aint happy about it. what do you actually want from her? she's putting in the effort to change, to be someone you all want.
But have you put in the effort to help her?

what i'm really trying to look at, is from the inside out.
we all have a past that creates us to what we are.
but are you gonna accept her
for what she is.

i'm trying my best to help her in any other way that can give her a sense of belonging.

screw it.

for some reason, i'm freaking freaking piss off.

today pretty much SUCKED.
i'm back to my thinking brains again and it's not that i'm emo-ing or what but reflections really gets me pissed off of my behavior or other ppl's behavior. It's good. at least i'm making some sense to what i'm doing now.

then the bus ride sucked. it sucked so badly that, for the first time in my life, i'm feeling nausea even when i'm settled down at home.

i think i need a break.

and i'll blog about my thoughts tomorrow, if i have the mood to.

3rd one this year!

sister bought me a jacket from genting.
yes another jackect.
AND I LOVE IT.

maybe coming back home isnt too bad afterall.

sigh.

sigh.
checkers is such a loser game.
but i'm lovin' it.

didnt go climbing today, practically caz i think i should take a break.
slept for 1 beautiful hour and is now refreshed.

might not be going for lync this sat.
heh.

oh sis is coming back tonight.
sigh.

it's climbing.

i'm in dilemma.

1)
there's climbing tml
should i go?
cause it's the only rest day for the week.

2)
there's this min climbing (boudering) competition this sat and it is at 1pm.
lync's at 3pm.
i doubt i'll even be able to make it for lync if i got for it.
but like it's cool cause if you're like in the top ten, in the future, u'll get to be sponsered by the school in any competition that you join.


sigh.

tired.

a pretty busy week ahead for me.
which means something that's not the usual things that i should be doing for the week.

tuesday: YD pract
thursday: YD pract
friday: advanture learning thingy
saturaday: maybe there's climbing too

so i went climbing today.
and i'm tired now, more like my hand are tired.

sis went genting early this morning.
and i'm happy. cause she's finally out of the house for more than 2 days.
sometimes, i think she do need a life. like this.
but she took stuff with her that sacrificed 3 people.
how considerate.

childhood.

what if someone you treasure is leaving your sight in 6 mths time.
what if that someone has been with you since she was born.
what am i gonna do for this 6mths for her?

i'll do must best and not cry.


thank you for the wallet.
even if the colour doesnt suit me.

beautiful saviour

I LOVVVEEEE THIS SONG.

and it took me faster than i thought i would to find the song.
caz imeem was nice to not licence the song
and guess what?
while searching the song i found a chinese version of it.
darn cool.



play it to hear.
oh ya! if you notice, i change the colour layout of my blog.

Beautiful Saviour
Jesus, beautiful Saviour
God of all majesty
Risen King
Lamb of God
Holy and righteous
Blessed Redeemer
Bright morning star

(pre-chorus)
All the heaven shout your praise
All creation bow to worship You

(chorus)
How wonderful
How beautiful
Name above every name
Exalted high
How wonderful
How beautiful
Jesus Your name, name above every name
Jesus

(bridge)
I will sing for ever
Jesus I love You
Jesus I love You

wonderful chats at the wrong time.

deep chats are wonderful.
but not when i had school + youthday practise on that day.
that explains why i'm so restless today.
plus i decided to go for climbing today.
it wasnt too bad.
but i got a blister from the climbing shoes.
so i'm dead tired now.
and i'm going to sleep soon.

i lost a kg. =)

jun* i found a person who can finally win me in checkers.
sigh.

sombody

sometimes we follow to be somebody.

toliet paper.

Jeremiah 29:11-14 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."


standing in the gap,
i'll choose to trust God more and more and more and more.
and make a difference.


worship prac was good today.
attempt on a bass, freaking cool. but the bass stinks.

had awesome msn chats.
blog more tomorrow.
tired.
good night.

QUESTIONAIRE

i'm doing this in favour for sharifa.
and if you blog readers do realise, i think it's my first time doing such thing.

01. How many children do you want in the future?
two or three

02. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriend?
i think it meant boyfriend? friends cause i dont have a boyfriend

03. Who is/are the person/people you trust most?
family? myself? God?

04.Do you think you have enough confidence?
that's what i'm lack of.

05. What would you do if you see someone abusing an innocent animal?
ehhh i dont know. i'll cry in my heart? but scold the abuser? i dunno

06. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
like duhh. i mean it's the rain drops shape + sunlight that causes the rainbow right?

07. What is your goal for this year?
loose many many fats before bro's wedding?

08. Do you believe in eternity love?
maybe

09. Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
ehh no. i dont think i'm that powerful

10. What feeling do you love most?
i like being happy.

12. Does having alot of bestfriends, really regard them as the real meaning of bestfriend?
hmm bestfriend.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yupp

14. Do you like to hang out with friends?
yeah. especially friends that i've not seen for a LOOONG time. like CLASS. =)

15. What/Who do you think is/are the most important in your life?
my daddy always teaches me to be happy and dont regret the things that you do.

16. If you were on a ship, your mother and your boyfriend (been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship, you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?
WHAAAAAT kind of question is this?. i'll throw the float into the sea then pray that Daddy God will save them. or i'll jump to save the other who doesnt get the float then swim towards the boat of to the float that the other party is on. erm i hope the float is strong enough

17.If your boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?
hahaha purposely chatch him in action and stares at him in a distance, untill he sees me. stare awhile more, mayb stare and release a tear drop see his shocked face then wak away hoping that he'll regret and stay single for the rest of my life.

18. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
I want to go back to last year.

19. Have you felt the true meaning of love?
love? can i count Daddy God in? or eles NO.

20. What's my favourtie colour?
=) i dont think i need to answer this. HEH.

Remove 1 question from the above and add in one personal question.Make a total of 20 questions and tag 7 people.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them at their tagboard that they've been tagged.
i'm too lazy to think of people. And the questions are not that interesting leh. so lovey dovey one. it doesnt help people to understand me more. hmm. and i'm too lazy to tag people too. remember? i dont tag. and neither do people tag me. ok seldom.


i want to add more realistic questions but i'm too lazy to think.
once again, my eyes hurts.
and i didnt run today caz i was exhuasted. and health wasnt for my day today.
oh sis bought chicken pie for me cause she happily ate my curry puff, that i tried to hide it from the glutons in my family but she thought it was for her.
youth day practise tomorrow!
and i'm gonna read P.S i love you now.
bye.

linking.

i think it's super super super super scary to be linked by others. like you know how ppl can just link here and there and bump into your blog or like spy on you?
SO, dont link me unless you've asked me and i've allowed. But i think i'll still prefer not to be linked. =)
privacy you see.
although i dont quite have any privacy.


i haven lost my love for running.
and of caz even though i've not run for months, my stamina is still there. ask me to run 2.4km now and i'll run it in 14min?
like how i always know i'm that talented sports person but health took it away. and i'm so not happy about it.

i think i need to change abit of my blog layout.
when i'm free.

back to school

back to school,
tired as usual.
but 15mins sleep was more than enough to wake me up.
still, drifted really badly but WELL,
i guess the funniest thing is with such age, there are people who actually skip school cause the topic was un-understandable.

i think gaining more knowledge isnt too bad.


and then i'm gonna make a commitment which is to run every weekday, provided if i'm free. meaning no worship stuff or climbing on that day.
i ran today.

happy daddy's day!

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!

mum bought a chocolate cake for father's day and knowing that i dont like chocolate, she bought me a palm size cheese cake.

how sweet of her.

revealing

i think not going to this camp instead of youth hub or class outing was really a better choice to choose.
like i just didnt understand y i even signed up for the camp but just felt like signing up cause i thought i should try to get more involved with RP?
you know how i've been trying to accept the fact that "God has a plan for me" getting crappy results and choosing RP because i didnt want to be "pushed around" the polys and getting even more disappointed. so it was my 3rd and 4th choice. but i still did pray and seek God with which 2 RP courses that should put as my 3rd choice lah. THEN it happened that when i've recieved my posting i actually looked at my 12 choices and thought. "CRAP. y did i even put this course as my 3rd choice." but i knew i've prayed about it. so it cant go wrong.
and going to this camp actually allowed me to understand the camp more better? like it's really what i'm interested in lah. video/photo editing and photography really do interest me lah. and this is where God actually told me how he have actually given me everything that i've wanted.

i remembered i've made many dreams.
1) go to SAJC (i didnt study there but at least i'm studied God's word there. SERVE.)
2) i wanted to get into psychology where i can get to mix with people who are so called different.(i didnt. but i actually got a change to be in simei care center for SERVE attachment.)
3) then i've always like these photoshop stuff but my knowledge so limited. (and here i am, in DIDM.)

i mean simple stuff like going SAJC was actually fullfilled but just in a different way.
what i'm gonna do in the future, related media stuff? i dunno. But i'm sure that God has His plans for me, and one day, i'll be seeing more of His wonders.

revealing.

AWESOME.

ok. i'm gonna edit my post cause i was so darn tired yesterday that wasnt able to blog properly. that's why it's like so messy and everywhere plus i cant remember what i've blogged.
edits are in red or yellow.


i'm finished with the 2 days camp, and i'll say,
MAN I LOVE IT.

and i must say that i'm super super bad in remembering names. especially chinese ones. and by the end of the camp, i still do not know all my group's members name. =P

but still, camp was freaking cool. we did a crappily funny fork video (i'll upload it here when he uploads the video.) today where we were totally behind time in preperation. but we made it. or well can i say that guy who stayed up later than the rest saved us.

let me introduce him properly. he's in year 2, we call him swensens, because he has an almost unprounsable name which actually sounds like swensens. found his real name: Shen Hsuan (shen xuan) so he introduced like this. "HI I'M SHEN XUAN" "WHHHHAAAT??" "err just call me and swensens"
he has like tons and tons and tons of songs in his com. too many that we actually had the problem of finding a song for the photo powerpoint. and then he was like "if your need any songs, just ask me. i can find it or hack to get it."
and i think he's a IT genius too "you can add me on msn (flashes his e-mail on wordpad, text size 72) got any com problems, vb coding or watever, just ask me. not that i know everything lah but i'll try to help lah."
and HE'S LIKE FREAKING PRO OKAY. PHOTOSHOP, VIDEO EDITING, MUSIC SEARCH, DIRECTING/PLOTING, ACTING AND VIDEOING, HE OWNS THEM ALL.
and of caz he funniest thing about him is that when he speaks, he'll zhao xia's like every 5 to 10 seconds. DAMN FUNNY.

oh and it's because of him, we've won the 2nd prize with a cool 1Gb tumbdrive each. not too bad yeah? oh the first won $10 popular voucher each. =)


HEH.

i'll blog more on the Godly side tomorrow. darn tired. even when it was only a 2 day camp. and videoing and photographing is not as easy as you think it can be.

still,
AWESOME.

Diploma in Interactive Digital Media CAMP

pardon me, i'm in school now, having a camp and for goodness sake, 4 out of 6 of my group members are happily laying themselves to sleep. and me? it's WAY TOO EARLY TO SLEEP.
even though it was a tiring day today.


ok let me tell you abt wat i did in this DIDM camp, instead of hanging out with my class people. went to places which was around cityhall with 2 pro canon cameras to capture pictures that is exactly the same angle as the given photo-ed clues. pretty cool and fun except for the freaking hot/glaring sun that never decides to stop burning.
so of caz i'm sticking to my "a picture tells a thousand words" thing so yeappp there's picture later below.

tomorrow will be cooler. we're shooting a 5mins video and it has to do with a pretty tin which has a fork in it. i've shared a storyline with my group already but it doesnt seem to interest them. ok my plan is "THE CURSE OF THE FORK" so like when a person recieves this pretty box, which has a fork in it, something like he will die or wateva........... hmm i think it's cool. rather than coming out with something like "HOW A FORK CAN CHANGE A PERSON'S LIFE."

RIGHHHHHHHHTTTTTTT.

ok. if i did have a proper theme of what we're doing, i'll be brainstorming by myself now.
man i'm becoming more like sabrina.


ok. my butt hurts from the hard floor.


PICTURES TIME! well i think the shots aint tat nice.



i took this. (above picture)




OKAY, this person just got dared and i was his target so it went like this " 'sorry i'm doing a dare now and i hope you dont get offended.' (with his hands smacking the floor) YOU B**** YOU F***ING B****....... " cant remember the rest. but it was FREAKING LOUD right to my face. ok. maybe it's not a very good idea to stay up late, while the rest of your grp members execpt 1 guys who is wide awake and showing extreme boredem.

CAMP.

I'LL BE AWAY ON A CAMP TILL FRIDAY NIGHT AND GUESS WHAT?

THERE'S A CLASS E35G OUTTING TOMORROW.

and i think it'll be good if i make the effort to go for the camp, since i've signed up.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????

holidays? not really.

ok this is bad.
i'm haven been climbing for the past 2 week and plus this week, it will be the third.
there's training tomorrow but i promised my kid to help her with her homework caz tml's my last day at the hub. and then i'm having a camp from thrusday to friday.
and i really want to climb.

KILL ME.

lies

a little temperamental these few days.
but well, sometimes i do enjoy the times when i throw some temper.
=)

before we even realise, we're actually living in a world of lies.
lies beyond our imgination.
yet, we must still live with a smile and the courage to face them.

child-like love

Going to st james church today was good!
worship and everything was wonderful.
met some GG people too!!! =) MISS THEM LOTS.
back to it,
it's been a really long time since i've felt like that. having a wonderful worship and sermon and company and also how i really want to get back to God but there's so many barrells. Even standing up for God in the frontline just seems so difficult. But well I guess God really works in His mighty ways. Like today, when i felt that lync's 'sermon' was like 'ok.', God actually spoke to me through this small little sharing, many hours after it ended.

And then it goes like this.
he was saying something like when you go to a mission, the difficult part isnt about how you're going to adapt to the place or share God's word there but the difficult part comes after you've come back home and how you're gonna use this experience in your walk with God.
and it's really like taking SERVE an example.
i've experienced so much wonderful things during that 2 mths training but how much closer am i to God now?

something to think about. =)

i really miss my that child-like love for God that I will stand up for Him when He calls for me and not taking other people's thoughts into consideration, before standing for Him

8TH HUNDRED

IT'S THE 8TH HUNDRED POST!

I'M HAPPY TODAY CAUSE I MET SRRI AT YOUTH HUB TODAY AND SHE SAID HER SISTERS MISSES ME. YAYYYY.

I MISS THEM TOO.

i'm a server

i'm tired. so let the photos speak.

Before it gets outdated, here are photos from youth hub's amazing race on tuesday. From youth hub to church to esplanade to suntec to raffles city and then to the AIRPORT. It's extremely tiring when you have to do amazing race with KIDS but still, I LOVE IT.

AND then there's the SERVErs thanksgiving party.

with pizzas+chicken+wagges+ coke+WII= it's the perfect party already.

I'M A SERVER.

HOME

1)i lost my 'wallet'
2) failed my basic theory test.

ok there's reasons y i failed my btt.
i didnt know how to use the stupid touch screen properly,
which caused fustration,
plus my wallet fustration,
i screwed the test.
and somehow i knew i would fail.

suckest day ever. but i'm getting over it soon. i've gotten over the test already. but i still cant accept the fact that i LOST SOMETHING VALUABLE, FOR THE FIRST TIME.

IC, NETs, CARDS, $20++, a new PICK and CASING. GONE.
ok it means that it's really TIME to CHANGE IT.

but i think the good thing of having that wallet was tat my ez-link cant tap through it. SO i didnt put my ezlink card in it. SO, i still have it with me.


and somehow, I suddenly woke up from my 'sleep' and realised how God was trying to speak to me through this whole 2 weeks but the devil keeps speaking to me. Like seriously, it was bad. Knowing that I really cant leave without Him, i came out with the "I dont want to go back to God when i'm in trouble, I want to go back caz I want to." and somehow going back when i'm ready never seems to work.

like how AJ just suddenly asked me a question yesterday.

"ARE YOU GROWING?"
not at all. more like backsliding.

"lync's still different, i still sleep in 9am, i dont do QT, I dont praise God, I'm on my own strength."

and i need to get back HOME.

JSIJAEFDKC

INCIENFINCSUEGFPAOQWDAKLM.

interpretate it.

can i leave singapore?

today was cool!
but darn tired.
I LOVE THE AIRPORT!
and i'm dying to leave singapore.

there's driving basic theory tomorrow.
and i pray that i will pass it.

good night.

holidays YEAH?

SO IT'S HOLIDAYS! YUP FOR TWO WEEKS! HEH.
and here's my schedual:

monday: RGPS gang + 1 to NARNIA!
tuesday: youth hub amazing race!
wednesday: basic driving theory!
thrusday: SERVE thanksgiving @ youth hub
friday: rock climbing

monday: FREE
tuesday: FREE
wednesday: FREE
thursday: DIDM camp
friday: DIDM camp

so there is goes! 3 totally free days! but i might be going to youth hub. =) AND AND AND MEET UP WITH TOH XUELING!!
oh i think there might be a class (E35G) outting? someday?
and I SERIOUSLY MISS CLASS as in CLASS CLASS. i need my LIFE back.




joke of the day:
recently, there's a rat in dad's shop. So they kept asking the pest people to give a rat posion thing, which obviously didnt work.
so thursday, mummy saw the rat like uncountable times, well it's a mouse actually, and bro thinks it's cute! ok but tat's not the point.
SO yesterday, the pest guy came to collect money

mummy: hey the rat is still around you know? it keeps shitting on my slippers!
pest guy: what kind of rat is it?
pest guy: is it mouth sharp, ears like mickey mouse and long tail one?
mummy: yeahh the mouth sharp and long tail!
pest guy: AYE THAT KIND OF MOUSE GIVES GOOD LUCK ONE YOU KNOW? USUALLY CHINESE COMPANY SEE THIS KIND OF RAT THEY DONT WANT TO KILL ONE. IF THE RAT'S EARS ARE RED, MORE GOOD LUCK!


LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAT???????????
KILL ME.