psalm 19:14

900th hundred post.

i learn something new in climbing today.
"Dare To Reach"
it may seem far but if you dare, you'll get it.

or maybe cause i haven recover from my fall fright? that's why i lost my dare.
anyways it's fun. =)

i on the bus getting home today and then i started thinking.
"what the hack is with linette and her major mood swing recently."
so bad that i can burst out the F word anytime.
i remember the last time i spurt it out was last sem when i forgot that my laptop isnt installed and i accidenly disconnected the power. ok it was a very bad moment like "F.. oh shit." and my classmates gave me that HOW UNHOLY look. hah.
it wasnt on purpose. it just came out.

WELL and now, when i mood swing, the words doesnt come out and just hang around my thoughts. and that's bad.
ok i dont believe in changing fuck to "fish" or something. caz to me, the meaning is still there. either i use the words or i dont at all. and i try not to.

okay. so in the bus, i just kept getting pissed off with my mood swing and than getting all unhappy cause i'm mood swinging. kept wondering what's the root cause of it. and maybe i do know but then amazingly, somehow, for a long time, i heard God speaking.
and then this verse, that i pasted on my table's wall, came to mind.

"may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in Your sight, Oh Lord my Rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14


and just this very simple verse where i got it during one day's Quiet Time and decided to write it on a post-it and paste it on the wall, as a reminder, and today, it was powerful to me.
"words of my mouth", "bitterness in my heart, bad thoughts, wether it's being jealous, proud, short temper...."
isnt very pleasing to God.
and i want to be pleasing in His sight once again.

ZOOOOOOOOOOM

i feel like cracking my bone back into position.

anyways,
not seeing the F1 cars is alright.
the sound of it is more than enough.
=)

got a new laptop bag!

okay.
so last night daddy gave me my coming week's allowance and thinking that i should really save up, i decided to keep $40 into my bank book. and guess what?
i found $30 in it.
i bet i put it in last time and forgot about it.

hmm i should do more of this stuff.
=)

bruises and pain

climbing, which seem to be giving me more bruisers.
just added a few on my legs.
plus this stupid floorballer wacked his ball and it flew towards the side of my knee. or i'll say just above my healing scratch done by the climbing wall, 4 days ago.

screw that floorballer. because it was freaking pain.

ok then i'm upset with climbing caz the fear of my right leg's preventing me from 'risking' my so call life by doing the very cool jumps from rocks to rocks.
and then the worst part was when being extra careful, i think, i made the pain come back again.
now it feel like it's back to the 3rd of having a sprain ankle, if you call that part an ankle.


sigh.
Daddy God,
can you get me totally healed?

crackle crack

so moody today that i might just spurt out vulgarities.
i guess i'm just in the UGHHHH WHY IS THING HAPPENING THIS WAY.
kill me out of it please.


leaving that aside,
i think i'm loving my new class day after day.
not like it's wonderful or what but the ppl there crackles me up.
like how audrea happened to be clement ex school mate.
and what's more is that i found that from clement that he said AN IMGINARY ENEMY.

okay then today there was this guy in my group who webcam with his friend.

friend: IHFOIRFJEOIEJRQ39403MDW!
darren: (puts on his HEADphone and spoke UBER LOUDLY in chinese) OIE YOU DONT NEED TO TALK SO LOUDLY RIGHT!!!!
then the whole class stares at him and gave him that "OH I'M SURE YOU'RE NOT TALKING LOUDLY" look.
then he realised everyone's stare and said: oh sorry the mic it's like here (points) lah. super far away.


and little bits and pieces like that has made the class funny-ly cool.

where's the love tonight?

linette

i was thinking just now,
that zoom in is actually not the name i wanted to name that 4th fourandahalf. but now i think i know wat to name it.


went climbing on monday and ended with many bruises and scratches. hmm i think it's all from one fall.

linette wants a climbing shoe. and she'll save for a climbing shoe.
linette wants a laptop bag. and mummy might probably provide.
linette drags to find something to wear for bro's wedding.
linette wants to shop without looking at prices.
linette will shoo all temptation away to save money.
linette must never be materialistic.

linette wants to pass her FTT once and for all.
linette hates studying.
linette ate steamboats for the past two days
linette cant shit, cause she's too busy/lazy to get some time to shit.
linette did her IC today.
linette went to shop with mummy for a gown for mummy.
linette thinks mummy is beautiful in her gown.
linette is aching from climbing.

linette is tired of going school. but will continue.

wall of fame

edited.

4th fourandahalf design's here.
and also the lousiest one.
too lazy to edit it already lah.
maybe one day when i'm free-er and feeling more inspired.
after all i think fourandahalf designs only comes out once a year.

A wall of fame,
something to be proud of.

you stupid spoilt brat.

super super dead tired in school today.
i dont know why but i think it's telling me that I SHOULD NOT GET A JOB.
i mean if i want a job, i'll get it during the holidays.
BUT, i've already given all my this years' (poly year one) holidays to youth hub.
SO... hmm.

so tired to the extend that i decided to not go for climbing. like usually no matter how tired i am, i'll still be able to go climbing.
so tired that i didnt take my usual less than an hour nap, but 2 hours sleep.

HMM, for now i'll rely on my parents.
i'll repay them back next time.
aye at least i gave them money when i was SERVEing okay.
and i'm only eighteen.
i dont think my bro and sis did that when they were at my age.

meanwhile,
i'll borrow money from sis, secretly, to survive for the next two days.
heh.


you stupid spoilt brat.

screw money.

driving was cool today. freaking cool.
like how dara kept smiling over playing guitar for the first 9am worship prac,
i was smiling during the 2 hours drive.
but,
pain always comes after joy.
$56 and i could only afford $25.
even the many times that i've hinting to dad that i'm freaking broke already, and he still forgets to give me money.
being me, i hate asking parents for extra money unless i really need it.
and i wont ask again if they dont give me.

checked my bank today and it's left with 30 odd dollars.
with $4 in my wallet for the rest of the week.
i used to have at least $200 in my bank.
but now..

i've never been this broke before.
plus you know i really dont spend much? i'm not materlistic and i seldom shop. k maybe the only thing i spend alot on is food. but how much can i lose from it?

i always wonder how come my friends parents will just give them extra money or at least money for a purpose, without them asking, but my dad will never do that.
dad will never give me extra money, unless he's in a good mood and it only happens twice a year?
mum gives but i cant bare to take from her.
not like my dad doesnt have money or what, but he's never really bothered about my so called hints. he prefers spending for the benifit of a family in whole.


people say the youngest are the most spoilt ones.
but for me, i'm try to be independent because my brother and sister are independent in their own ways, and i try to be like them.
but sometimes, it's hard.
brother respects my parents alot.
sister never ask extra money from them.
bringing them together, if i dont do any of them,
i might be labled.
or i think i used to be labled.


maybe i'll get better when dad gives me money.
hope it's enough.

issumagijoujungnainermik

issumagijoujungnainermik
not like any ACVENIRAewrjfaoijqou34 that i use but it means
'not being able to think about it any more'
~ forgiveness in Eskimo language.


back to climbing today and i felt like a century behind. but it's only a mth.
oh wells.


hmm i think i have pretty alot of photos to upload and i hope the internet will love me tonight.

friday was one of the most awesome GG gathering ever. and i believe that if JUN, DAPH AND NOELLE were there, it would be even better.
even ppl like shermen went okay.
OH shermen. his first words to joel when he reached was.
not "HI!" but "WOAHHH YOUR MUSCLES SO BIG ALREADY!!!"
and shuan and alvan couldnt help to burst out laughing.
ok me too lah.

i just simple love all of them.
minhui who i'll see almost EVERYDAY,
greatest daph and jun of RGPS gang plus ONE.
joel who's always my very nice angel.
susanna who's my lovely SUSSIE.
claire who's always so loud.
cheryl with her 'hey girl'
alvan who saved me from getting bang into a pillar.
shuan who's shirt is still yet to be pass down to him.
shermen with his weirdness.
noelle with soccer.
siyu who's in love with clement.
clement who's forever so cute.

and i love GG.


i think it's a very lovely shot. just that they werent looking at my camera.


they kept saying we're looking more alike.

God's Gang 2008

internet loves me today.

GG'S DAY

as much as i hate blogging in school, i still am.
the internet at home hates me.

so later on there'll be a few picture from the dinner 2 nights ago. and i just realised that my coming sister-in-law's surname is TAY not TEO.
okay back to the food, it's darrrrrnnnn good. in fact i think the food is too good (in price wise). at least the taste isnt too bad. But abalone wasnt tat great lah. OH THE DESERT IS FREAAAKKIINNNNGGG GOOOOD. it's "yam with pumkin sauce" sound ughh but darrrrnn nice.
=)

flowers on VIP table.
white's for guest, the nice one is for VIP. ahem, i'm a VIP.
=)
aww he's getting married.





oh bro was saying that he wanted black and red for the VIP table. than i was like yahhh nice! but it's black lah. haha. then guess what he said?
"yah lah then it will be like you, so gothic."
hahah ok. =)


i was being a naughty girl by skipping school yesterday.
because i was too lazy to get up.
like you know you wake up and give 101 reasons why you should or should not go to school.
and i was convince with my reasons for not going to school.
=)


today's GG's day!

Hello i'm Lazy Linette

and i lost another kg, for doing nothing.
YAY.


okay screwing up my sleeping timings lately, like how i decided to learn some upgrading of cooking skills from bro at 2am last night. =) tried it out jsut now and it went pretty well, except when i cooked finish and my arm accidently touched the stove? you where the fire comes out from? yeah. freakkkinnngg pain okay. and i think it's abit swollen now. well, it's just a little little injury.

my leg's still unwell and i really dunno why. sigh. i want to go back climbing lahhh. anyways my module teacher did some introduction today and we're suppose to come out with something that discribes you whereby that word's first letter is the same as the first letter of you name. and then i was thinking. Lame Linette (literally). ok but i came out with Lazy Linette.
so the game was to introduce youself right that it's like the first person will introduce the teacher then himself. then the 2nd person introduces the teacher, 1st person and himself.
and guess what?
i was the last person.
kill me.
i had to remember 10 or 11 names
let me try it out now.

HELLO Busy Bee!
his name is Young Yong sheng
and he is A... andre
and she is Start Sonia
and she is Innocent Ida
and he is B... Boon siong
and he is J... Jing sheng
and she is W... Wan yun
and she is Happy Hanisah
and he is Wiggly Wai zhan
and she is Ruby Regina
and I AM LAZY LINETTE.

obviously i cant remmeber all. but my memory's isnt too bad lah.
i think.


anyways,
this CHEN family is going to meet the TEOs tml.
which mean we're meeting my bro's soon to be in-laws.
how exciting.
and i'm sure there will be a major communication break down for brother sister and me with the parents TEO.
so much for not teaching us dialect, parents CHEN.
yay anyways i'm looking forward for the FOOOOOD at HYATT!
and because it's hyatt, it better be good.
=)
oh and i'm tempeted to shop before meeting the families, well hyatt's at orchard too right?
oh wells, maybe i wont.

jumpdownanddie

M: Look at those helicopters! Or is it a Chinook? Whatever, just wish one of those helicopters will come down and send me home. Maybe drop me off at the roof.
L: But if the roof is lock, how can you get home? Jump down and die?


one my very lazy friend that i have.
=)

be sensitive.

i'm kind of a bad mood right now.
i think it started when someone who's just too insensitive spoke stuff that triggered off my anger.

and i hate such people who does not think before they talk because no matter how un-hot-tempered i am now, does not mean i dont have my that very bad temper anymore.

ok then i got super irritated with family who keeps shouting for me. hate it especially when i manage to settle down and read the Bible or trying to connect with Daddy God.


that's it.

suhgoaehidfoasjc

i'm freezing under my very cold air con.

few hours ago, i was so freaking sleepy and i hate it when i keep falling asleep instead of getting some entertaiment from the tv.
well cant blame it since worship practice took away my very lovely afternoon nap.


ok so my point is, i'm super energetic now.
or maybe i wont soon after i end this blog post.



lync yesterday WAS...........ishfweoru43oficiuh3erhc. you know sometimes, it's just very very disappointing when i thought that Bible study on ACT has ended and then there'll be a break with more interesting erm like RELATIONSHIPS? FAMILY? hah. OR SOME GUEST SPEAKER? and then you're starting on Bible study again. I'm not trying to say that it's not important to study the Bible. But like must at least get some more worldly related topics? ok even if it's on PRAYER, i wont really mind.

but anyways, crashing the camp comm's Bible study on romans 2:?? was more anointing than lync's sermon.
sigh. still, i dont think it's time for me to leave lync or try out YA.


oh wells.
cell would make up for it. =)

spiritual guitarist.

HMM. i'm still not in favour of my class. oh wells. thing will get better.
oh the guys are hardworking but the girls are like talking way to much not talk talk but 'talk but dont do work?' ok like "i doooonnntt undeerrrrsstaaannnd" and they leave it there like that. ok at least 1 girl in my grp today was willing to put in some effort. so that was good.

ok i just hope i dont get too DJWIGHJI#R(@#JO with RP's pbl system and starts being irresponsible.
heh.

SO there's this guy in my class who brough his guitar today a classical one and man he can pluck really well.
and you know male musicians melts my heart. HAHAH
(introduction time went like that. you have to introduce you grp mate to your class, name+something about the person.)
and maybe caz i couldnt think of anything to tell my introducer what to say, i said i like musical instruments.

and that's true ok.

so back to the guy who was with his guitar.
during lunch break he ramdomly came to me and asked what instrument i play.
DENG DENG.
ok i abandon my belovered cornet and only said guitar.
anyways he woudnt even know what's a cornet and then i'll have to explain it "a trumpet but smaller."

yeah so he went on saying stuff like how long have you played and other stuff lah.
five years, but only serious last year. plays accoustic, cant pluck for nuts. wants to play for church. blabla

ok here's the DENG DENG part. *WEI JUNNNNN!*

after that he said: "i'm actually trying to form a band, like with one guy from my guitar class also and we're aiming on song of 'i forgot the artist' where they're songs are pretty easy to play...."
LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAT??????????
hahah kill me.
and then i said my guitar skill sucks.

oh yah, i dunno his name. HAHA. =)

okay now i feel like guitaring.
=)

hair is neater.

cell in church was cool today.
and it was cool caz i didnt expect so many ppl to come,
ok even though there was only 7 of us.
the cell consist of 8 ppl okay.
we're holy people. =)


and i cut my hair today.


how the hack to do pronounce "wai zhan"
it's a name.
some guy from my class.

desert song

crashing into NUS hostel pdp? or wat you call it lah to celebrate xiao guang's bday with RGPS gang + 1 WAS FREAKING COOL.
simply funny, cool and nerve racking.
i may upload the photo sometime soon or just go to my facebook or ele's and check them out.


someone was nice to lunch with the lonely me today.
screw RP's system of new classes.
and then tomorrow carries on.
with the very very very very packed and slow lift
and also with a long winded Kumaran.
THANKS ARH.
kill me please.

oh new blog song.

like the This Is Our God version thou.

but imeem just have to licence all hillsong's albums.

Desert Song

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

FOOOOOONGGGGGG

he feels lucky this way.

jinfong's

yayy. yesterday was kinda fun.
at least it was something normal. =)

ehh edit the post in about 1hr plus time caz there are photos.
so for now, before it's past 12am,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN FONG. =)

Back at 12.23am,
and obviously i'm now too lazy to upload the photos. =)
ok let me blog.

sunday was cool caz it's at the east coast cable ski. ok i didnt ski although it's super super super tempting. but even if my feet wasnt *in the mids of healing* i wouldnt ski too. or mayb i would.
ok forget about it.
anyways the girls FINALLY came.
beehwee,ruiting and vaneza.
great catch ups. =)
well expected more ppl but sighhh.

oh yyahhh i didnt go back to sch for teacher's day caz i was too lazy to get out of my bed. i guess it's really bad to have late sleeping habits during the holidays. like even if i were to be all busy and tired the whole day, i'll end up sleep ehh early. so balme it on holidays.

holidays are ending and please kill me. I DONT WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL AND MAKE NEW FRIENDS ALL OVER AGAIN. i like to talk but new environments shuts me up. and i miss CLASS so much caz i miss the times when i'm darrrrnnnnn bored and not in the sleeping mood, i would walk round the class disturbing almost every classmate. like you know "pick up lines." ahem christmas play. or just disturb.

for this RP sucks.

and then since tml's the last day of my holiday,
my mum suggested that i should RENEW MY LONG LOST IC.
i went to the website yesterday and it said.
"Singapore Citizens and Permanent Residents who have lost their Identity Cards are required to report the loss and apply for a replacement in person within 14 days. "
i reported lost of IC on the 4/6/2008
kill me please.

oh and it's gonna cost my dad a hundered bucks.
kill me another time.

sigh i hate taking so much money from parents.
and i was thinking just now,
WHERE DID ALL MY 3 MTHS OF SERVE MONEY WENT!
$1500 and i'm left with less than a hundred.
sigh. better spend less.
AND I'M STILL THINKING OF SHOPPING TML.
MAYBE, I CAN GET BUDGET STUFF FROM BUGIS TOMORROW.
=)